I read this and just put's my feelings at this moment in words.
by Ron Carnell
I cannot speak for all who stem
'Long roads less traveled as their way,
Nor question choices made by them
In days long past or nights long dim
by words they spoke and did not say.
Each road is long, though short it seems,
And credence gives each road a name
Of fantasies sun-drenched in beams
Or choices turned to darkened dreams,
To where each road wends just the same.
From North to South, then back again,
I followed birds like all the rest
Escaping nature's snowy den
On roads I've seen and places been,
Forsaking roads that traveled West.
This journey grows now to its end,
As road reflections lined in chrome
Give way to roads with greater bend
And empty signs that still pretend
They point the way to home sweet home.
But all roads lead to where we go
And where we go is where we've been,
So home is just a word we know,
That space in time most apropos
For where we want to be again.
For even home, it seems to me,
Is still a choice we all must face
From day to day and endlessly,
To choose if home is going to be
Another road - or just a place
Aug 27, 2008
May 21, 2008
Now I hv no title for this one!!
A lonely seagull flies the winds
Majestic... soaring...gliding wings
A single screech sounds from the sky
Come fly with me... come here and fly
My spirit floats to be a part
I feel the beating of its heart
My soul, one with this bird of sea
Now knows the meaning to fly free
I feel the winds caress my soul
And soar the streams without a goal
My being trembles of delight
A treasure I received tonight
The seagull's flight of soaring high
The gift of what it means to fly
Majestic... soaring...gliding wings
A single screech sounds from the sky
Come fly with me... come here and fly
My spirit floats to be a part
I feel the beating of its heart
My soul, one with this bird of sea
Now knows the meaning to fly free
I feel the winds caress my soul
And soar the streams without a goal
My being trembles of delight
A treasure I received tonight
The seagull's flight of soaring high
The gift of what it means to fly
Interesting
The Wise Man and The Fool
by John McLeod
Said the wise man to the fool one day:
"I've got a hundred candles,
And lots of copper candlesticks with ornamental handles,
They cost me every cent I had
But I shall be all right,
And in the darkness of the eve I'll have a splendid light."
The fool said: "Yes, you may be wise,
But then again, p'raps not,
Only pence had I to buy, one candle's all I got,
But then, I bought some matches too
And you, the silly goose,
Bought none, and so without a light
Your candles are no use!"
The moral of the story is simplicity's defence,
For even the buffooning clown
May have some common sense!
The wise man and the village fool,
But tell me which is which?
The one with only coppers?
Or the other very rich?
After reading this, did you not start thinking on the question asked.... quite an intellectual question!!!
by John McLeod
Said the wise man to the fool one day:
"I've got a hundred candles,
And lots of copper candlesticks with ornamental handles,
They cost me every cent I had
But I shall be all right,
And in the darkness of the eve I'll have a splendid light."
The fool said: "Yes, you may be wise,
But then again, p'raps not,
Only pence had I to buy, one candle's all I got,
But then, I bought some matches too
And you, the silly goose,
Bought none, and so without a light
Your candles are no use!"
The moral of the story is simplicity's defence,
For even the buffooning clown
May have some common sense!
The wise man and the village fool,
But tell me which is which?
The one with only coppers?
Or the other very rich?
After reading this, did you not start thinking on the question asked.... quite an intellectual question!!!
May 12, 2008
Finally back to work!!!!
Its been months tht i hv been eating people's head that i cudnt study nemore and really wanted to hit the working life as soon as possible. But the way things were, I had already given up of getting any genuine sensible job and I had made up my mind to go back to mumbai for good!!
But finally last day of sem, last exam and i get a call from Ontario Ministry of Environment - Mr. Manager Frank Tomassini - "are you still available for work this summer". And I went like - More than available. Tht was the day and today is the day that I finally made it to work after not so good but neither that bad 9 months... It was actually a period worth delivering a baby for sure.
So how was the day - Fantastic, Fantabulous, Perfect.
As usual, like every time I hv to get back to work after school term, on the first day itself i can never wake up on time inspite of all precautions taken. So was today, sitting in my bed half asleep instead to getting ready to go as I was already getting late, I'm replying to emails. But cuz I'm so used to rushing I finally make up everything on time.
After 11 months I actually dressed up all in formals, man i cudnt stop adoring myself in the mirror, an absolute professional look. The last time I was so elegantly formally dressed was 15th july 2007 for my Final and the last Board meeting at Winmark (My workplace in Bbay - though i still miss my desk and all my belongings at office). I am out of the house at 7 am and every one on the station all dressed up formals rushing to work, finally i see a busy life in Toronto and so many people rushing at the same time. It reminded me of my Bbay days at work and this view was way more polished. I was enjoying it all. Finally I reach work on time and got started.
I was a bit skeptical wht kinda work would I be given since it was a lab dept. But like I say god always listen to wht my heart wants and I really got much more thn i was expecting. I am finally placed in the reporting team for the annual lab Audit of the ministry labs. Man the work i love the most - Managing and puttingvthins in place and in order and deal with regulations, laws and compliance. Wow I still dont believe I'm gonna get to do it all. The best work timing i cud ever ask for. The only disappoint I had was that i am really goin to be paid really low compared to others. But today looking at the kind of work I am goin to do for the remaining 4 months and the opportunities I am goin to come across at the ministry just covered up for it. Reviewing protocols and SOP's, Audit papers and annual records, stats data, factual data, the list is never ending. I finally sign a confidentiality contract and took an oath - it was just the perfect icing with a a cherry on the cake. As of this day I couldnt hv asked for more.
I guess most of the things are in place, atleast for some time. And I hv always believed tht a good start is the best thing u can have and prolly - I hv it.
Now what ahead,, just keeping my fingers crossed as a few permanent internal openings are goin to come in 2 months time and if I manage to get that, there wud not be more i cud ask for, for atleast 1 -2 yrs.
Studies and education are in place, work life is in place, my home is kinda settled; need not worry for some time - the only thing left my PERSONAL LIFE - which every1 in the world my friends and family thinks that I need to fix and give all my attention and importance, so working on it as well - hoping this time I give it fair chance, time and attention - Probably i know its goin to be the most difficult thing for me compared to the totally different things tht has got importance and attention from my side - But lets give it a shot - For a change everything is falling in right and perfect place - hope even this gets charmed by the good things and vibes around. Inshallah!!!!
But finally last day of sem, last exam and i get a call from Ontario Ministry of Environment - Mr. Manager Frank Tomassini - "are you still available for work this summer". And I went like - More than available. Tht was the day and today is the day that I finally made it to work after not so good but neither that bad 9 months... It was actually a period worth delivering a baby for sure.
So how was the day - Fantastic, Fantabulous, Perfect.
As usual, like every time I hv to get back to work after school term, on the first day itself i can never wake up on time inspite of all precautions taken. So was today, sitting in my bed half asleep instead to getting ready to go as I was already getting late, I'm replying to emails. But cuz I'm so used to rushing I finally make up everything on time.
After 11 months I actually dressed up all in formals, man i cudnt stop adoring myself in the mirror, an absolute professional look. The last time I was so elegantly formally dressed was 15th july 2007 for my Final and the last Board meeting at Winmark (My workplace in Bbay - though i still miss my desk and all my belongings at office). I am out of the house at 7 am and every one on the station all dressed up formals rushing to work, finally i see a busy life in Toronto and so many people rushing at the same time. It reminded me of my Bbay days at work and this view was way more polished. I was enjoying it all. Finally I reach work on time and got started.
I was a bit skeptical wht kinda work would I be given since it was a lab dept. But like I say god always listen to wht my heart wants and I really got much more thn i was expecting. I am finally placed in the reporting team for the annual lab Audit of the ministry labs. Man the work i love the most - Managing and puttingvthins in place and in order and deal with regulations, laws and compliance. Wow I still dont believe I'm gonna get to do it all. The best work timing i cud ever ask for. The only disappoint I had was that i am really goin to be paid really low compared to others. But today looking at the kind of work I am goin to do for the remaining 4 months and the opportunities I am goin to come across at the ministry just covered up for it. Reviewing protocols and SOP's, Audit papers and annual records, stats data, factual data, the list is never ending. I finally sign a confidentiality contract and took an oath - it was just the perfect icing with a a cherry on the cake. As of this day I couldnt hv asked for more.
I guess most of the things are in place, atleast for some time. And I hv always believed tht a good start is the best thing u can have and prolly - I hv it.
Now what ahead,, just keeping my fingers crossed as a few permanent internal openings are goin to come in 2 months time and if I manage to get that, there wud not be more i cud ask for, for atleast 1 -2 yrs.
Studies and education are in place, work life is in place, my home is kinda settled; need not worry for some time - the only thing left my PERSONAL LIFE - which every1 in the world my friends and family thinks that I need to fix and give all my attention and importance, so working on it as well - hoping this time I give it fair chance, time and attention - Probably i know its goin to be the most difficult thing for me compared to the totally different things tht has got importance and attention from my side - But lets give it a shot - For a change everything is falling in right and perfect place - hope even this gets charmed by the good things and vibes around. Inshallah!!!!
Apr 18, 2008
A quote worth reading!!!
All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself.
~Ralph Ellison, "Battle Royal"
~Ralph Ellison, "Battle Royal"
Apr 4, 2008
On the question of race
This is so very surprising that what does one has to do with one's ethnicity or race when it comes to Job Applications. I had to answer these questions everywhere I applied for jobs. Strange, Who say's only UK is racist, US of A and Canada stand equally!!!!
They ask me to write down
My race and I think
And think very seriously
And consider writing down the
Truth and have my answer read
I have respect in me
I have love in me
I share my respect and love with everyone
Especially to my close ones
There is love and respect
Inside my body
I am a part of a beautiful culture
I am a part of a caring culture
My culture is very lovely
Much different from here
There we die for each other
Here we are on our own
Caring nature from my background
Inside my body
I have a wonderful family
I have wonderful friends
Without them, I am nothing
Without them, I am no one
I am loner in the heart
Without their love
Without them, I have a lost soul
Inside my body
I have a dream, which I can fulfill
I have a will, which I can fulfill
Which I could have fulfilled in India
But in Canada, thought a land of opportunities
I can see myself somewhere
But its not like India
I miss my mother’s food
I miss my friends
But I made new friends here
My lost soul, feeling full
Inside my body
I have experienced education in India
I have started experienced education here
It is different in India
There teachers asked for homework
They cared about us
Here, we are on our own
It is our choice to come class
I feel useless here
Inside my body
They ask me to write down
My race and I think
And think very seriously
And consider writing down the
Truth and have my answer read
I have a need
I have a want
I look for love in these people
Did I get what I Want???
Indeed only in a few people
I feel happy
Inside my body
I have a desire
I have a will
To become part of this country
Yet, have my values be part of me
I hope this will be possible
For many say they change
Even if I become Canadian like the others
My soul will remain Indian
My heart will remain Indian
My blood will remain Indian
And I will die Indian
Inside my body
They ask me to write down
My race and I think
And think very seriously
And consider writing down the
Truth and have my answer read
I have respect in me
I have love in me
I share my respect and love with everyone
Especially to my close ones
There is love and respect
Inside my body
I am a part of a beautiful culture
I am a part of a caring culture
My culture is very lovely
Much different from here
There we die for each other
Here we are on our own
Caring nature from my background
Inside my body
I have a wonderful family
I have wonderful friends
Without them, I am nothing
Without them, I am no one
I am loner in the heart
Without their love
Without them, I have a lost soul
Inside my body
I have a dream, which I can fulfill
I have a will, which I can fulfill
Which I could have fulfilled in India
But in Canada, thought a land of opportunities
I can see myself somewhere
But its not like India
I miss my mother’s food
I miss my friends
But I made new friends here
My lost soul, feeling full
Inside my body
I have experienced education in India
I have started experienced education here
It is different in India
There teachers asked for homework
They cared about us
Here, we are on our own
It is our choice to come class
I feel useless here
Inside my body
They ask me to write down
My race and I think
And think very seriously
And consider writing down the
Truth and have my answer read
I have a need
I have a want
I look for love in these people
Did I get what I Want???
Indeed only in a few people
I feel happy
Inside my body
I have a desire
I have a will
To become part of this country
Yet, have my values be part of me
I hope this will be possible
For many say they change
Even if I become Canadian like the others
My soul will remain Indian
My heart will remain Indian
My blood will remain Indian
And I will die Indian
Inside my body
I’m just a Woman…
A woman needs to be assured
In each and every way,
She needs the warmth of loving words
That only you can say.
She needs a lot of understanding …
When she’s feeling somewhat down.
She needs for you to make her smile,
And take away her frown.
A woman’s heart is fragile
Her feelings are that way too,
Times she feels so sad inside,
Not knowing what to do.
It’s hard to be a woman,
Misunderstood in many ways,
Sometimes all it takes to help,
Is a loving word, to make her day.
She needs to know that she’s the one,
That fills your heart with desire,
She needs to be told often,
That she sets your soul on fire.
She needs that soft and tender touch
As if she were a fragile rose,
And feel that she’s so special.
From all others, you could have chose.
She needs to hear, “I Love you”,
Whether close or miles apart,
She needs to know… she’s the one,
That’s the center of your heart.
So, please listen when I need to talk,
Please kiss away my tears,
Let me share my worries with you,
And help me face my fears.
In each and every way,
She needs the warmth of loving words
That only you can say.
She needs a lot of understanding …
When she’s feeling somewhat down.
She needs for you to make her smile,
And take away her frown.
A woman’s heart is fragile
Her feelings are that way too,
Times she feels so sad inside,
Not knowing what to do.
It’s hard to be a woman,
Misunderstood in many ways,
Sometimes all it takes to help,
Is a loving word, to make her day.
She needs to know that she’s the one,
That fills your heart with desire,
She needs to be told often,
That she sets your soul on fire.
She needs that soft and tender touch
As if she were a fragile rose,
And feel that she’s so special.
From all others, you could have chose.
She needs to hear, “I Love you”,
Whether close or miles apart,
She needs to know… she’s the one,
That’s the center of your heart.
So, please listen when I need to talk,
Please kiss away my tears,
Let me share my worries with you,
And help me face my fears.
Mar 28, 2008
I’ll dream…I’ll do!!
A free bird is what
I’ve always longed to be
Breaking away from the confines
Of an uncertain mind
Wanting to reach out
To the world surrounding me
Sky being my limit
I hope to reach great heights
Striving harder with each new day.
Taking criticism in my stride
I am now ready to create days
From the dark and dreary nights…
My dreams are real
Quite different from the rest
I seek to usher in a new tomorrow.
Standing out from the crowd
I aim to become better
Of course better, than the very best!!
I just scribbling this last night, after I read a reply to my job application which said "Your academic qualifications are higher than required for this position".
Just want to pen down the words of a song which is quite inspiring and all those people who are away from home and are finding it so hard to hang in, this is for all you guys!!!
Yeh zamin hain reh guzar ter mere vaste
Har ghadi hain ek safar tere mere vaste
Nayi mazilo ko chale naye raaste
(It means that this land is for us to live by as ever moment in life is a part of our journey, and in this journey every new goal to make is going to create many roads to walk on)
Is gagan ke tale, hum jo ghar se chale, Sirf ye khawab hi saath hain
Agle hi mod par, hone ko hain sehar, Zara der toh raat hain
Khushiyon se honi abhi mulakat hain
(Under the shelter of sky when we decided to leave our home, we walked out with our dreams, its been long that you have been walking in darkness but you need not give up now because the night is bout to come to and an end and in no time therz goin to be beautiful sunrise which will overtake the darkness, You have to hang on as you've got to meet the happiness)
Gum ki deewar se, dukh ki zanjir se, Ruk saki hain kaha zindagi
Ek naya hausla, leke dil ye chala, Arzoo dil mein hain phir nayi
In ankho mein phir hain saje khab kayi
(Inspite of hundreds of troubles and disappointment which stop you from moving ahead,they were nto able to stop life from moving ahead. Every trouble/disappointment have given a new hope and courage to move on and again there are new dreams that are built in our eyes)
I’ve always longed to be
Breaking away from the confines
Of an uncertain mind
Wanting to reach out
To the world surrounding me
Sky being my limit
I hope to reach great heights
Striving harder with each new day.
Taking criticism in my stride
I am now ready to create days
From the dark and dreary nights…
My dreams are real
Quite different from the rest
I seek to usher in a new tomorrow.
Standing out from the crowd
I aim to become better
Of course better, than the very best!!
I just scribbling this last night, after I read a reply to my job application which said "Your academic qualifications are higher than required for this position".
Just want to pen down the words of a song which is quite inspiring and all those people who are away from home and are finding it so hard to hang in, this is for all you guys!!!
Yeh zamin hain reh guzar ter mere vaste
Har ghadi hain ek safar tere mere vaste
Nayi mazilo ko chale naye raaste
(It means that this land is for us to live by as ever moment in life is a part of our journey, and in this journey every new goal to make is going to create many roads to walk on)
Is gagan ke tale, hum jo ghar se chale, Sirf ye khawab hi saath hain
Agle hi mod par, hone ko hain sehar, Zara der toh raat hain
Khushiyon se honi abhi mulakat hain
(Under the shelter of sky when we decided to leave our home, we walked out with our dreams, its been long that you have been walking in darkness but you need not give up now because the night is bout to come to and an end and in no time therz goin to be beautiful sunrise which will overtake the darkness, You have to hang on as you've got to meet the happiness)
Gum ki deewar se, dukh ki zanjir se, Ruk saki hain kaha zindagi
Ek naya hausla, leke dil ye chala, Arzoo dil mein hain phir nayi
In ankho mein phir hain saje khab kayi
(Inspite of hundreds of troubles and disappointment which stop you from moving ahead,they were nto able to stop life from moving ahead. Every trouble/disappointment have given a new hope and courage to move on and again there are new dreams that are built in our eyes)
Mar 22, 2008
The Best colors of my life!!!
I know I have always been the crazier one amongst you’ll, but as always I get those Pagalpan & Stupidity attacks today is one of those days. I don’t know why am I doing this but cuz today being Happy Holi and wanted to feel very happy as it is my fav festival for its full of colors, and I love the quote which says “I’m a part of all that I have met” I just wanted count all the colors of love & friendship I have had in life…. Y do I need to do it today???? - Because this day is meant to be spent with colors.
So the colorful list follows, find your name its alphabetical – (I Know I’m quite smart)
Aasutosh – the first time I spoke to this man, showed his irritation because his name was spelt wrong – which he think when pronounced as its spelled sounds like whtever. One of the sweetest friends I have had since past 3 yrs now. I know its very funny and strange how we came across and am really happy tht we did continue as friends and since then hez always been there to hear me out. One person, I don’t know how he figures out only just reading one line I write while I am chatting to him that I am tensed, confused, sad or depressed that he leaves all his work and sits and talks it out with me. Never lets me lose the faith in me n yesterday for the first time he lost on me cuz he cud not hear me sound so negative. One of the men who can make roti’s absolutely round, a shayar at heart and with words, man I miss talking to you these days with all the shayari’s … love ya
Akhil – you are this one weirdo I met at bholas 8 years ago who wanted to copy an answer from me and I showed it to him and look at his guts that after the exam was over he comes upto me and tells me that next week test i have to read electricity chapter and show him the answers cuz he was not goin to study. Since then thru the year he used to tell me what should I study and go for the test so that he can copy from me and since then we hv been friends. One fellow who gets so annoyed while I used to wait on the streets to eat panipuri and all other chat and used to call me LS… hehe. Whenever we've planned clubbing he used to promise that he’ll get me drunk and when we finally reach he used to buy me cola and keep my mouth shut – how boring – Indian man. He has entertained all my tantrums without getting annoyed and I loved you the most when I told to quit smoking cuz I dint like it and you did that at that moment. Dude I hv very few ppl who take all my tantrums and no one here in Toronto. Man plan a trip soon.
Centennial Folks –
Karan & Saad – these 2 are just Jay & Veeru from Sholay, absolute partners in crime, the first set of friends at centennial and after moving to Scarborough. They were the life line and saved me from getting lost with those mad, sad, annoying, gavti roomies I had got. We’ve spent some best time when it comes to goin out, hanging around and at times when I used to miss home. Karan you have been really sweet and your mum and dad have been so good that whenever i came up to your place i they made me feel at home. You guys will always remain close to my heart even if I leave Scarborough. By the way again this time Republik dint happen…. Not fair……
Bernard – The very first friend I made in my class, he loves Indian food and movies. He will always call up in the middle of the night to tell me which movie he watched and would discuss it. He almost understands everything we talk in hindi, n he replies in English. Man u notice every small thing I wear, shoes, coats, kajal, glosses – I guess now u hv a count of all things I own!!!! Always keeps complimenting me n keeps telling me i m looking good. The only person in this country called Canada I get a hug from everytime hez across…. Ur a total sweetheart
Jeff – Hez is a freaking flirt, never misses a single occasion to crack some kinda statement so much tht I m blushing almost all the time when he is around. Oh man he gets so mad at me when I say tht he shud hv better choices rather thn flirting with me – I love it when he says ‘u don’t know ur potential’. Hez on a mission to turn me from cute and sweet to hot n sexy gal – This mad man drags me to the gym, he snatches food from my hands while we are out, makes me work out so hard – I hate him for tht. But I love it when he shouts “get ur fat ass out of the couch” hehehe – hez so cute…. Everytime hez seriously saying something I start smiling n he loses on me but poor fellow cant help it…. Hez given up on me. Thank u sweetie – honestly i hv never loved to go to a gym, but cuz of u now it’s a habit. These days all the compliments I get for looking good, all credit goes to u, never felt so good about myself!!!! Muaahhhh
St. Josephites – My school
Wht do I say about these 3 guys – Anish, Jayraj and Rushabh – when all my closest friends left me n went to the US, I had these people around all the time. Never knew our school reunion would built a friendship so strong with people I used to hardly talk to in the school. I had never spoken to Anish in the school, it was an acquaintance with Jayraj and I remember Rushabh n Abbas used to tease me cuz I loved Salman Khan n everytime a crow used to come on a window they used to point it as Salman Khan.
We came together so that our reunion program could work out. Thanks to us and to the idea of reuion I did make friends with people whom once I knew – a lot more thn I used to talk while I was in school. We have discussed life, education, career, finances, real estate investments, stocks market and what not.almost a year and half it was every Friday I used to call up Jayraj – yeh week ka program kya hain. How much they used to tease me. Anish always says – tujhe ladki mein kaun ginta hain – hehe
They hv bared me n my non stop cribbing and non sense and a few personal issues all the time while I was in the process of coming to Toronto. They were so harrowed that that if it was in their hands they would have parceled me at that time. Diwali, navratri, weekends and last year’s holi – man I so wanted to have bhang n these guys some how managed to get me though only it was like one glass.
Poor Jayraj – as if hez working in Infosys just for us so that we can hv conference calls. Man I’m still trying to figure out out logic behind conference calls just to make weekend programs as if we were dealing with million dollar business….. man miss that time, but u guys hv to stay in touch n keep meeting even if I m not there. If I was the reason, I shud still be the reason for u guys to spend time together. Miss u all a lot
Karan Oberoi – thts wht the people know you as but for me ur the wacko Kay. What do I write about you, you’ve been the man, philosopher, guide, advisor, counselor and the elder bro. Who says relationships that last forever are of those with blood ties. Whether it be good or bad, u’ve stood by me, and with you I have got another set of parents and a sister who care as much as my own. Though always tried being the elder one which you are, I never let u win. The man who taught me to live life even in the most miserable conditions, taught me to be myself and made me believe in myself and my dreams. If I am a social butterfly or a people’s person is all because of u. If it not had been for u, I would still be that same stupid gal, ugly, introvert, reserved gal. Though not having blood ties, u’ve been my elder bro – conservative, protective and my bestest friend. A person who is always so critical on me, I know I used to feel so bad when u used to be rude but all that rudeness n nastyness has sculpted good things in me that are goin to stay wid me all my life. I need not hv said all this here cuz I know u hate it and u gonna blast me for it – BUT remember u were the one who made me start my Blog....
Raj – I met you when I was hunting a house to move from Mississauga and then we crashed again in the French class. If it not had been for you, Rohan and Vivek I would hv died in those French classes. Had and have a good time with you guys. You are always there if I need an advice be it my study permit, PR application, work permit, income tax whtever which is important to be known and the right time. You’ve been really helpful to a stranger like me. And plz plz plz gift me your dog (Your Max – bahut pyar se rakhungi….will never ask nething) ;) thanks for being there.
Rikin – Its not the ideal way people begin friendships the way it was ours but its been 2 yrs now and sometimes I think as if I’ve known you for years. I remember, forget even being friends we had like a brief acquaintance and I harrowed you with so many questions all the time while I was applyin to Canada. I still remember it was a Sunday nite for me and morning for you and I made you proof read my recommendation letters and though you were not ought to do that how sweet of you that you did it. That’s not the reason you find a place in this list but you were the very first person I met after coming to Toronto – My FIRST Friend, in Canada. The day I met you I was really low and upset cuz I had been sitting at home and did not go out for like 20 days and was really feeling homesick. That’s a diff thing the day I met you u made miss Bombay a lot that I actually went home and cried but those couple of hrs with you made me feel so comfortable and at home and till today its been the best time, your statements always brings me peace. I know you call me crazy all the time and after readin this I’m sure u’ll say I’m absolutely mad but its ohk… now I’m used to listening it… hehe. I know I do bore you a lot wid my stupidity but you will always be a special friend. It’s a total diff thing tht everytime you are coming down, u tell me; but forget meeting, u don’t even hv the time to call me…. And by the way I still need to meet Bugsy… loved to hv u as a friends, tons of thanks…..
And now the reason I am here in this beautiful world.
My Parents – I know most of my friends and many other people are in an awe when it comes to my mum and dad. Unlike other girls who were around me, I was never told to do certain things or not to do certain things cause I was girl. Wonder if many girls have so much freedom when it comes to taking decisions.
Daddy dearest - I hv been my Poppy’s support system, he has this blind faith in me n don’t know why he belives that I know it all, which acres me all the time. Its been the most difficult thing in his life to let me come here but he just accepted everything without a single word. No questions and no discussions of why, where, what for. I can just say one thing - You are the BEST. Though u tend to be too boring at times but just love the way you are.
Mommy bestest – I guess I hv the weirdest mum in the world. She hates to love me n the same is with me, though we are mother and daughter we are like those bad, wicked, naughty gals. We can talk n gossip bout nething. I guess I hv the only mother who thinks tht I am useless creature cuz I’ve managed to stay single for so long. She so wanted me to hv a BF so that she could team up with him to trouble and irritate me – she calls me a waste and I love it when u say that mom!!! while at my age when all mothers want their daughters to get married and settle down, she gave me all the liberty to do things the way i wanted be it for my personal life, my career - A very practical, understanding n damn Chalu mom...Hehe haha… Shez been my bestest friend may be that’s the reason I never needed a girl friend as u can see only guys are there in my list. Mom by giving me the freedom and independence you have let me learn from nature's best teacher called - LIFE.
My chotu, my sis – Sushmita – man everytime I talk to her I only feel that I wish I was like her when I was of her age. Shez 6 yrs younger to me but shez been my biggest support system. Man she knows it all, n she knows me inside out – just like still water runs deep. Nobody understands me as much she does, though she doesn’t behave older thn me but I feel she can read my heart. She is very strong, very firm, very very smart and intelligent. Can give u a run for your money. Love u chotu
My grandfather, my dadu – I hv been his eldest granddaughter and he has made me the ideal grand-daughter. Hez so proud of me and loves me so much, prolly not many wud hv such great dadu. Its been 8 months here n if the world may forget but ther isn’t been a single Sunday since the day I hv landed in this country that he has forgotten to call me. I know I mean the world to him and I would never let u down.
My grandmother, my dadi – I wish she was here to see me come so far. She was so so so proud of me and she has been my ideal, a very strong, and independent, self created woman. I was the apple of her eyes, dare if anyone could ever point a finger at me or discourage me in front of her, that person would be trashed, she would not even spare my mum and dad. When people see me they find her replica in me and nothing makes me feel so proud than this. I hope dadi I hv stayed upto your expectations. Your r the biggest thing I miss in life today, if there was some way that I could have you back in my life, I would hv done nething for it.
Mum & Dad & Dadu – u guys hv stood by me so strong in past 2 yrs when more half world was not with me and supported me with all I wanted and the way I wanted.
And last but not the least – My GOD – I’m always troubling & fighting with him and make him give me all the things I want, but because he is GOD he troubles me a lot in return before giving me everything I wanted. God – you try my patience a lot. Though I cant complain because he gave me all I wanted and will hv to give all I need. I thank you for giving a life filled with so many nice beautiful and positive colors. I can only wish and pray that everyone has a colorful life just like me!!!
HAPPY HOLI to everyone!!!
So the colorful list follows, find your name its alphabetical – (I Know I’m quite smart)
Aasutosh – the first time I spoke to this man, showed his irritation because his name was spelt wrong – which he think when pronounced as its spelled sounds like whtever. One of the sweetest friends I have had since past 3 yrs now. I know its very funny and strange how we came across and am really happy tht we did continue as friends and since then hez always been there to hear me out. One person, I don’t know how he figures out only just reading one line I write while I am chatting to him that I am tensed, confused, sad or depressed that he leaves all his work and sits and talks it out with me. Never lets me lose the faith in me n yesterday for the first time he lost on me cuz he cud not hear me sound so negative. One of the men who can make roti’s absolutely round, a shayar at heart and with words, man I miss talking to you these days with all the shayari’s … love ya
Akhil – you are this one weirdo I met at bholas 8 years ago who wanted to copy an answer from me and I showed it to him and look at his guts that after the exam was over he comes upto me and tells me that next week test i have to read electricity chapter and show him the answers cuz he was not goin to study. Since then thru the year he used to tell me what should I study and go for the test so that he can copy from me and since then we hv been friends. One fellow who gets so annoyed while I used to wait on the streets to eat panipuri and all other chat and used to call me LS… hehe. Whenever we've planned clubbing he used to promise that he’ll get me drunk and when we finally reach he used to buy me cola and keep my mouth shut – how boring – Indian man. He has entertained all my tantrums without getting annoyed and I loved you the most when I told to quit smoking cuz I dint like it and you did that at that moment. Dude I hv very few ppl who take all my tantrums and no one here in Toronto. Man plan a trip soon.
Centennial Folks –
Karan & Saad – these 2 are just Jay & Veeru from Sholay, absolute partners in crime, the first set of friends at centennial and after moving to Scarborough. They were the life line and saved me from getting lost with those mad, sad, annoying, gavti roomies I had got. We’ve spent some best time when it comes to goin out, hanging around and at times when I used to miss home. Karan you have been really sweet and your mum and dad have been so good that whenever i came up to your place i they made me feel at home. You guys will always remain close to my heart even if I leave Scarborough. By the way again this time Republik dint happen…. Not fair……
Bernard – The very first friend I made in my class, he loves Indian food and movies. He will always call up in the middle of the night to tell me which movie he watched and would discuss it. He almost understands everything we talk in hindi, n he replies in English. Man u notice every small thing I wear, shoes, coats, kajal, glosses – I guess now u hv a count of all things I own!!!! Always keeps complimenting me n keeps telling me i m looking good. The only person in this country called Canada I get a hug from everytime hez across…. Ur a total sweetheart
Jeff – Hez is a freaking flirt, never misses a single occasion to crack some kinda statement so much tht I m blushing almost all the time when he is around. Oh man he gets so mad at me when I say tht he shud hv better choices rather thn flirting with me – I love it when he says ‘u don’t know ur potential’. Hez on a mission to turn me from cute and sweet to hot n sexy gal – This mad man drags me to the gym, he snatches food from my hands while we are out, makes me work out so hard – I hate him for tht. But I love it when he shouts “get ur fat ass out of the couch” hehehe – hez so cute…. Everytime hez seriously saying something I start smiling n he loses on me but poor fellow cant help it…. Hez given up on me. Thank u sweetie – honestly i hv never loved to go to a gym, but cuz of u now it’s a habit. These days all the compliments I get for looking good, all credit goes to u, never felt so good about myself!!!! Muaahhhh
St. Josephites – My school
Wht do I say about these 3 guys – Anish, Jayraj and Rushabh – when all my closest friends left me n went to the US, I had these people around all the time. Never knew our school reunion would built a friendship so strong with people I used to hardly talk to in the school. I had never spoken to Anish in the school, it was an acquaintance with Jayraj and I remember Rushabh n Abbas used to tease me cuz I loved Salman Khan n everytime a crow used to come on a window they used to point it as Salman Khan.
We came together so that our reunion program could work out. Thanks to us and to the idea of reuion I did make friends with people whom once I knew – a lot more thn I used to talk while I was in school. We have discussed life, education, career, finances, real estate investments, stocks market and what not.almost a year and half it was every Friday I used to call up Jayraj – yeh week ka program kya hain. How much they used to tease me. Anish always says – tujhe ladki mein kaun ginta hain – hehe
They hv bared me n my non stop cribbing and non sense and a few personal issues all the time while I was in the process of coming to Toronto. They were so harrowed that that if it was in their hands they would have parceled me at that time. Diwali, navratri, weekends and last year’s holi – man I so wanted to have bhang n these guys some how managed to get me though only it was like one glass.
Poor Jayraj – as if hez working in Infosys just for us so that we can hv conference calls. Man I’m still trying to figure out out logic behind conference calls just to make weekend programs as if we were dealing with million dollar business….. man miss that time, but u guys hv to stay in touch n keep meeting even if I m not there. If I was the reason, I shud still be the reason for u guys to spend time together. Miss u all a lot
Karan Oberoi – thts wht the people know you as but for me ur the wacko Kay. What do I write about you, you’ve been the man, philosopher, guide, advisor, counselor and the elder bro. Who says relationships that last forever are of those with blood ties. Whether it be good or bad, u’ve stood by me, and with you I have got another set of parents and a sister who care as much as my own. Though always tried being the elder one which you are, I never let u win. The man who taught me to live life even in the most miserable conditions, taught me to be myself and made me believe in myself and my dreams. If I am a social butterfly or a people’s person is all because of u. If it not had been for u, I would still be that same stupid gal, ugly, introvert, reserved gal. Though not having blood ties, u’ve been my elder bro – conservative, protective and my bestest friend. A person who is always so critical on me, I know I used to feel so bad when u used to be rude but all that rudeness n nastyness has sculpted good things in me that are goin to stay wid me all my life. I need not hv said all this here cuz I know u hate it and u gonna blast me for it – BUT remember u were the one who made me start my Blog....
Raj – I met you when I was hunting a house to move from Mississauga and then we crashed again in the French class. If it not had been for you, Rohan and Vivek I would hv died in those French classes. Had and have a good time with you guys. You are always there if I need an advice be it my study permit, PR application, work permit, income tax whtever which is important to be known and the right time. You’ve been really helpful to a stranger like me. And plz plz plz gift me your dog (Your Max – bahut pyar se rakhungi….will never ask nething) ;) thanks for being there.
Rikin – Its not the ideal way people begin friendships the way it was ours but its been 2 yrs now and sometimes I think as if I’ve known you for years. I remember, forget even being friends we had like a brief acquaintance and I harrowed you with so many questions all the time while I was applyin to Canada. I still remember it was a Sunday nite for me and morning for you and I made you proof read my recommendation letters and though you were not ought to do that how sweet of you that you did it. That’s not the reason you find a place in this list but you were the very first person I met after coming to Toronto – My FIRST Friend, in Canada. The day I met you I was really low and upset cuz I had been sitting at home and did not go out for like 20 days and was really feeling homesick. That’s a diff thing the day I met you u made miss Bombay a lot that I actually went home and cried but those couple of hrs with you made me feel so comfortable and at home and till today its been the best time, your statements always brings me peace. I know you call me crazy all the time and after readin this I’m sure u’ll say I’m absolutely mad but its ohk… now I’m used to listening it… hehe. I know I do bore you a lot wid my stupidity but you will always be a special friend. It’s a total diff thing tht everytime you are coming down, u tell me; but forget meeting, u don’t even hv the time to call me…. And by the way I still need to meet Bugsy… loved to hv u as a friends, tons of thanks…..
And now the reason I am here in this beautiful world.
My Parents – I know most of my friends and many other people are in an awe when it comes to my mum and dad. Unlike other girls who were around me, I was never told to do certain things or not to do certain things cause I was girl. Wonder if many girls have so much freedom when it comes to taking decisions.
Daddy dearest - I hv been my Poppy’s support system, he has this blind faith in me n don’t know why he belives that I know it all, which acres me all the time. Its been the most difficult thing in his life to let me come here but he just accepted everything without a single word. No questions and no discussions of why, where, what for. I can just say one thing - You are the BEST. Though u tend to be too boring at times but just love the way you are.
Mommy bestest – I guess I hv the weirdest mum in the world. She hates to love me n the same is with me, though we are mother and daughter we are like those bad, wicked, naughty gals. We can talk n gossip bout nething. I guess I hv the only mother who thinks tht I am useless creature cuz I’ve managed to stay single for so long. She so wanted me to hv a BF so that she could team up with him to trouble and irritate me – she calls me a waste and I love it when u say that mom!!! while at my age when all mothers want their daughters to get married and settle down, she gave me all the liberty to do things the way i wanted be it for my personal life, my career - A very practical, understanding n damn Chalu mom...Hehe haha… Shez been my bestest friend may be that’s the reason I never needed a girl friend as u can see only guys are there in my list. Mom by giving me the freedom and independence you have let me learn from nature's best teacher called - LIFE.
My chotu, my sis – Sushmita – man everytime I talk to her I only feel that I wish I was like her when I was of her age. Shez 6 yrs younger to me but shez been my biggest support system. Man she knows it all, n she knows me inside out – just like still water runs deep. Nobody understands me as much she does, though she doesn’t behave older thn me but I feel she can read my heart. She is very strong, very firm, very very smart and intelligent. Can give u a run for your money. Love u chotu
My grandfather, my dadu – I hv been his eldest granddaughter and he has made me the ideal grand-daughter. Hez so proud of me and loves me so much, prolly not many wud hv such great dadu. Its been 8 months here n if the world may forget but ther isn’t been a single Sunday since the day I hv landed in this country that he has forgotten to call me. I know I mean the world to him and I would never let u down.
My grandmother, my dadi – I wish she was here to see me come so far. She was so so so proud of me and she has been my ideal, a very strong, and independent, self created woman. I was the apple of her eyes, dare if anyone could ever point a finger at me or discourage me in front of her, that person would be trashed, she would not even spare my mum and dad. When people see me they find her replica in me and nothing makes me feel so proud than this. I hope dadi I hv stayed upto your expectations. Your r the biggest thing I miss in life today, if there was some way that I could have you back in my life, I would hv done nething for it.
Mum & Dad & Dadu – u guys hv stood by me so strong in past 2 yrs when more half world was not with me and supported me with all I wanted and the way I wanted.
And last but not the least – My GOD – I’m always troubling & fighting with him and make him give me all the things I want, but because he is GOD he troubles me a lot in return before giving me everything I wanted. God – you try my patience a lot. Though I cant complain because he gave me all I wanted and will hv to give all I need. I thank you for giving a life filled with so many nice beautiful and positive colors. I can only wish and pray that everyone has a colorful life just like me!!!
HAPPY HOLI to everyone!!!
Feb 21, 2008
I, Me and Myself
Before I start writing, I have to mention that my cooking experiments have never turned a nightmare. I baked a chocolate cake and for sake of fun, I wanted to do some variation. God’s knows how and from where weird ideas come to my head. I mixed red wine with orange flavored Tang and soaked the cake in it n dressed it with frozen mixed berries. I was to hesitant and scared to taste the combination of red wine mixed with Tang, so gave a shout to Meowww (that’s my roomie Soumya) to come and taste it. She said it has turned awesome n trust me it was so fabulous that we all 5 gals pounced on it n in just 2 mins the cake was over. Just we missed the freshly whipped cream as a topping, n with that it would have tasted like heaven!!!! – No wonder Meoowww calls me Creative cook.
Now back to myself. People have had been telling that I had changed after coming to Canada and I continuously kept disagreeing to the fact that – I had changed but not for good. After all the rona – dhona for months, I guess I have learnt to be happy while staying all by myself. Only after I overcame all this emotional roller coaster, Arjun visited me last week and we had a great time together.
Honestly, now even I feel more comfortable with my life here – though its not that great but its neither that bad. After really long, I mean absolutely after 8 months my life has blessed me by keeping me busy and I guess I love it that way. And I only realized it when my project instructor Paula specially came upto me to tell me, “You love to stay extremely busy, don’t you? You don’t want to take a break for 5 mins while you are in lab”. Even I agree to her but I guess I love to stay busy. I guess idleness would kill me someday for sure.
By the way people have stop complaining that I am not the same Dee, darshi, darshu, tashi , they knew and now they have the same old me – only difference I’m not around them. My life is back to normal – I mean I am back to attending calls again figuring out where people’s lives are leading, solving their so called love issues, being the relationship counselor and the life expert.
And to people who really think that I look very different and attractive, these days and that I have lost a lot of weight. There’s nothing like that and no special reason behind it. I am not used to listening such things about me so BOYS stop complimenting.
Now what’s next with me… I guess will be finishing my semester in 2 months and by then I guess I should have some job. And we will see what happens next
Jan 1, 2008
The Christmas week & the New Year
I had a great christmas week starting from 24th dec'07 (i m sure i dont need to specify tht but then too). I really had a good time with friends, movies and lots of masti. We travelled to Oak Ridge and Port Perry, some of beautiful places in toronto, all covered with snow n frozen lake Ontario. Being in a vacation home with a balcony which gives u a breath taking and a mind blowing view. i loved it more cuz some how white attracts me a lot. it just looked like heaven on earth, the weather being really nice, not very very cold. I never thought with what I had seen in toronto that it had such beautiful places around. The saddest part tht i forgot to take my camera charger.... damn!!!
After all the fun in that beautiful home, we went for some gambling at the blue heron some where near port perry, which in itself is located at a beautiful place. Won a lil moolah with black jack and later moved our way back to toronto aka scarborough (sometimes, rather all the time I feel its a sad place) never mind just another four months n prolly might just move to Edmonton if I dont manage to find nething worth in toronto.
Now coming to last night i.e. 31st Dec 2007, was a fabulous day and a great evening and a nice new year start. i celebrated the new years according to indian time with all my frnds on phone, i was glad cuz i wanted to be with my few frnds n family, then followed by the evening, I sooo much felt like dressing up n going out to see the fire works in downtown. So i dared to wear a short skirt in tht cold weather and believe me it was cold but i survived. We had some good time strolling down the streets, these guys so wanted to go to a club n dance thru the nite n i so wanted to be in the open spaces that we split into 2 groups. I shudnt be happy but those guys never landed up going to a club, they got separated, the phones lines were jammed and welcome the new year in a despair n jiff. And me on the other hand enjoying the snow at Nathan Phillip Square, counting down the seconds and then shouting with everyone, and the fireworks. Then we were so hungry that we picked up a sub then travelled out way back home, at home we played some nice music, made some hot gulab jamun, again was on calls till 5.00 am n then finally slept.
Now a brand new day, a brand new year, today I just don't feel like thinking too much about the last year nor wonder about what will happen in this year. A nice snow clad day, lotta peace in my head, a nice naughty smile.... so i guess it's a nice start. Will eventually look forward to things.....
So HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
By the way the pic is of the house we stayed in n was clicked when we were entering and after tht my cam died...... :(
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