tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74954283532668403802024-03-14T04:23:27.984-04:00A NoIsE WiThiN....Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.comBlogger119125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-41012072407331229182013-01-30T13:47:00.001-05:002013-01-31T07:17:44.043-05:00Being Married...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<a href="http://darshita.blogspot.in/2007/03/marriage-is-out-weddings-are-in.html">MARRIAGE is OUT, WEDDINGS are IN !! - </a><br />
After my this post once upon a time I never thought I would write on this topic again!! And here I am again...<br />
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I met up with with an old friend today for dinner and we were catching up after a long long time close to a decade!!! A couple of months ago he was getting ready to get married with his long time friend and on and off girl friend.<br />
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Unaware of whats going in his life and him relocating to Dubai, I happen to ask him how his married life was treating him as the first year is special! It came as a shocking surprise when he told me that he had split with his wife few months ago and processing a divorce!!! As much as I was shocked I could see the pain in his eyes and so I decided to change the topic and catch back memories of good old school days!<br />
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I am home lying in my bed after a nice day of solitude, can't stop thinking!!! whats wrong with people. Where is the concept of adjustments, tolerance and patience gone these days. I am hopelessly romantic, practically optimistic and I strongly believe that the meaning and definition of Love changes with different experiences be it good or bad and you can definitely fall in love more than one time only difference being its not the first time so there are are fewer things that can take you for a surprise and affect you or you react to them as the first time!<br />
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Among all my close friends especially the girl gang; I am the only one left single! All I hear from the married ones is to enjoy my singledom and freedom while I can. Marriage is the throw out call for the rose-tinted glasses. My cousins and friends repeatedly say; the first thing that goes out of the window is LOVE the day you say I-DO!!!<br />
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I refrain and refuse to agree to that! I believe its a new beginning to fall in love all over again with the same person you have said your vows to! <br />
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Love will happen. All over again or for the very first time. But it will happen. You may have known him for years, or just a few months. But this guy who you are promising your life to is still pretty brand new to you and you to him. Once the annoying habits have all come to fore, and the diverging views on all things important have been argued over, you will begin to see how he's come to accept you and you him. In a way no one ever accepted either of you. Not parents, brothers, sisters, friends. No one else but you and him. <br />
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You will grow faster than you have in years with this marriage. In a few days, weeks, months you will begin to feel like you are not the same anymore. You might even begin to look different. And scary as that may seem, don't fight it. Because the woman that will emerge on the other end will definitely be a stronger, more grounded, infinitely more mature and definitely more selfless person. Who has finally learned to live just as much for another person as she does for herself. <br />
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There will be days you will wonder if this was a mistake. Don't shy away from those days. Because when you weigh the choice you have made versus all the could-haves and would-haves you might even feel a tiny twinge of having given something up. And that's okay. Because there will be that moment when he makes you laugh so much you think you might cry, or slips a compliment in front of people unexpectedly or unconsciously stand up for you when you need it or simply begins to share his friends, work, time, memories and life with you just as you do and your heart will stop. And you will smile knowing one thing: This is where you were always meant to be. Its where you truly belong. You are home. <br />
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Marriage is the beginning of a whole new family. Don't be afraid to lay the rules, if you are proud of how your parents or his did something, or you'd rather do things differently, explore it. Just do it together. And after you've laid down rules, remember that sometimes it is more important to be happy together than right in your own stubborn corners. You can only hope to be happy. But atleast you can do that instead of repeating, "this is just not working" to yourself when things seems bleak or low.<br />
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Seek contentment as much as you can versus seeking pleasure. Even if he doesn't know what that means, he will learn it from you in the choices you make, the way you live your life and conduct yourself. Until one day you'll find yourselves sitting in absolute silence on a couch, thinking the exact same thought and share a smile knowing you guys have become reflections of each other. <br />
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I do believe marriage whether love, arranged, matched online, through a newspaper, a nosey aunt or a good-intentioned friend, isn't something we make happen- Unlike choosing your grad school or course or who to date or who to be friends with. There's powers at play here much deeper and greater than you've known that have chosen and decided which two of all of us on this planet are to come together. Do stop to appreciate the strength of that power and know that you can only be in good hands. You are blessed simply by having been brought into each others lives. Some good will definitely have to come out of that. Take that thought and make the most of it. As much as you can. And breathe, as Anna Nalick says in the song., Just breathe. <br />
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And when you want to pull your hair out with frustration, and I kid you not those days will come more often than you might have imagined, think of Chandler in that episode of F.R..I.E.N.D.S when he discovers Monica's hidden closet of trash and asks her why she hid it and she says: "Because I didn't want you to know I am messy." And he goes: "I don't love you because you're organized. I love you in spite of it!" :))<br />
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Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-21661452203261514352013-01-30T08:09:00.000-05:002013-01-30T08:09:18.336-05:00Serenity and Solace in Solitude<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Seems world is spinning faster and faster as each day passes by; resulting in enormous pressures, expectations and stress to overcome. We come to point that the only thing we look for or want is a balance and a sense that we hold the steering of our life.<br /><br />Failing to have that we overreact, feel overloaded, get easily annoyed with small stupid things and a feeling that we will never be able to catch up! So has my world been for a little more than a year for now! I have grown above the trials that life has thrown that I expect a lot, a lot more from myself.<br />Like its said its darkest before the sunrise, no matter what you do things just don't go your way. I have been there and felt the same. What has helped me to keep myself going is the concept and practicing mindfulness.<br /><br />People think I am going crazy but I love when I pull myself out and away from people. And I am doing the same today. Away from home - especially constant attention from my mom. Sitting here at Novotel beach facing cafe by myself in the afternoon was wonderful! Sometimes it is so important to give yourself I, Me and Myself time with some silence. Its like meditation. The sound of the waves brushing the shore, the cold breeze that travels across the Arabian sea seems relaxing. <br /><br />
I fail to understand why people generally mistake being silent and having solitude with being depressed and being lonely - a negative state which is a trait of isolation. Being silent and lonely is when you feel something within you or your life is missing. Its when you are with people but still don't feel part of it.<br /><br />Solitude is that time you are with yourself without feeling lonely. Its very positive frame of mind, gives an opportunity to reflect, constructive engagement of mind be it enjoying the nature, reading random things, be it bird watching. Its the happy feeling, content that it brings along. It is a means of enjoying the quiet and whatever it brings that is satisfying and from which we draw sustenance. It is something we cultivate. Solitude is refreshing; an opportunity to renew ourselves. In other words, it replenishes us.<br />
<br />We all need periods of solitude, although temperamentally we probably differ in the amount of solitude we need. Some solitude is essential; It gives us time to explore and know ourselves. It is the necessary counterpoint to intimacy, what allows us to have a self worthy of sharing. Solitude gives us a chance to regain perspective. It renews us for the challenges of life. It allows us to get (back) into the position of driving our own lives, rather than having them run by schedules and demands from without.<br /><br /></div>
Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-55502843225539979142013-01-29T13:06:00.000-05:002013-01-29T13:06:40.495-05:00The gambler - Kenny Rogers<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I am so tempted to just have the lyrics here - its sums up to a great advice!!!<br />
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On a warm summer's eve onn a train bound for nowhere<br />
I met up with the gambler<br />
We were both too tired to sleep<br />
So we took turns a-starin'<br />
Out the window at the darkness<br />
The boredom overtook us, and he began to speak<br />
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He said, "Son, I've made my life<br />
Out of readin' people's faces<br />
Knowin' what the cards were<br />
By the way they held their eyes<br />
So if you don't mind my sayin'<br />
I can see you're out of aces<br />
For a taste of your whiskey<br />
I'll give you some advice"<br />
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So I handed him my bottle<br />
And he drank down my last swallow<br />
Then he bummed a cigarette<br />
And asked me for a light<br />
And the night got deathly quiet<br />
And his faced lost all expression<br />
He said, "If you're gonna play the game, boy<br />
You gotta learn to play it right<br />
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You've got to know when to hold 'em<br />
Know when to fold 'em<br />
Know when to walk away<br />
Know when to run<br />
You never count your money<br />
When you're sittin' at the table<br />
There'll be time enough for countin'<br />
When the dealin's done<br />
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Now every gambler knows the secret to survivin'<br />
Is knowin' what to throw away<br />
And knowin' what to keep<br />
'Cause every hand's a winner<br />
And every hand's a loser<br />
And the best that you can hope for<br />
Is to die in your sleep"<br />
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So when he finished speakin'<br />
He turned back for the window<br />
Crushed out his cigarette<br />
And faded off to sleep then somewhere in the darkness<br />
The gambler he broke even,<br />
but in his final words<br />
I found an ace that I could keep</div>
Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-49804284366671497462012-08-31T16:46:00.000-04:002013-01-29T13:08:56.609-05:00Journey and beyond.....<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It was very re-assuring<br />
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Never Knew Your Life'S Shining,<br />
You Just Got To Take Your Place<br />
For That Silver Lining, Feel The Fire In Your Face<br />
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There'S No Waiting For Tomorrow<br />
Get Up Your Time Is Now<br />
There'S A Way To Feel A Sorrow<br />
Come On Lemme Show You How<br />
I Wanna Show You How<br />
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Feel Your Body Taking Over,<br />
To The Rhythm Deep Inside<br />
Moving Like A Rock And Roller,<br />
Gotta Let Your Feet Decide<br />
O Let My Feet Decide<br />
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Someone Said That Life'S Dance,<br />
You Just Gotta Play Your Part<br />
Never-Ever Loose A Chance<br />
Don'T Loose, Don'T Loose What You Break<br />
No Strings Around Your Heart<br />
Common Break No Strings..<br />
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Move It, Move It, Show Me, Show Me, Show Me, How To Do It<br />
Shake It, Break It, Everybody Come On<br />
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Dance With Me, Dance With Me, Come And Dance With Me<br />
Come On, Dance With Me, Dance With Me<br />
Come And Dance With Me<br />
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Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-45389734210559005092012-05-26T05:41:00.003-04:002012-05-26T05:41:38.536-04:00Marilyn Monroe's Quotes<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It's sad how sometimes inspite of having the world, you are
still left alone... Marilyn Monroe's writing has
always attracted me... like said some lessons are only learnt the
hard way.. some of the quotes that I have liked!!</span></div>
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<li>“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make
mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't
handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my
best.” </li>
<li>“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People
change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate
them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no
one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can
fall together.”</li>
<li>“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better
to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”</li>
<li>“A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't
believe, and leaves before she is left.”</li>
<li>“I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the
devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love.”</li>
<li>“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing
your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.”</li>
<li>“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're
going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you
get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends -
they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones
that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't
let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As
for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of
them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you
can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll
never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just
because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep
trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you
don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and
most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so
much to smile about.”</li>
<li>“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want.
If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than
them.”</li>
<li>“Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the
world.”</li>
<li>“I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves.
They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a
character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving
somebody I wasn't.</li>
<li>“She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was
sad. And that’s important—you know ”</li>
<li>“I don't know who invented high heels, but all women owe him
a lot!”</li>
<li>“I don't mind making jokes, but I don't want to look like
one.”</li>
<li>“Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall
together”</li>
<li>“If I play a stupid girl and ask a stupid question, I've got
to follow it through, what am I supposed to do, look intelligent?”</li>
<li>“Before marriage, a girl has to make love to a man to hold
him. After marriage, she has to hold him to make love to him.”</li>
<li>“I'm pretty, but I'm not beautiful. </li>
<li>I'm sin, but I'm not the devil.</li>
<li>I'm good, but I'm not an angel.</li>
<li>I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone
to love.” </li>
<li>“All a girl really wants is for one guy to prove to her that
they are not all the same.”</li>
<li>“Friendship is the bestiest thing that comes to life .
Friends will always be there for you don't worry about the fakes worry about
the people who had your back from the start and never treated you wrong always
remember they are your real friends don't never take them as granted because
one day your going to lose a good friend by the way your action's are when you
see a good friend stick to that person .” </li>
<li>“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you
are.” </li>
<li>“I knew I belonged to the public and to the world, not
because I was talented or even beautiful, but because I had never belonged to
anything or anyone else.” </li>
<li>“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're
going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get
to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll
act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay
with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of
them.” </li>
<li>“How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the
world she wants, rather than to create it herself.” </li>
<li>“Boys think girls are like books, If the cover doesn't catch
their eye they won't bother to read what's inside".” </li>
<li>“Too often they don't realize what they have until it's
gone. </li>
<li>...they're too stubborn to say, 'Sorry, I was wrong' </li>
<li>they hurt the ones closest to their hearts, </li>
<li>and we let the most foolish things tear us apart” </li>
<li>“Just because you fall once, doesn't mean you're fall at
everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always trust yourself, because if you
don't then who will??” </li>
<li>“Your clothes should be tight enough to show you're a woman
but loose enough to show you're a lady” </li>
<li>“That's the way you feel when you're beaten inside. You
don't feel angry at those who've beaten you. You just feel ashamed.”</li>
<li>“When you're young and healthy you can plan on Monday to
commit suicide, and by Wednesday you're laughing again.” </li>
<li>“I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil.
I am pretty, but not beautiful. I have friends, but I am not the peacemaker.”</li>
</ul>
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</div>Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-52435942759125964062012-05-25T12:47:00.000-04:002012-05-25T13:13:49.732-04:00Turning 30: 30 Things Every Woman Should Have And Should Know<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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In 1997, Glamour magazine published a story titled "30 Things
Every Woman Should Have and Should Know by the Time She's 30." The list,
written by Pamela Redmond Satran, was so popular that women started
emailing it around, misattributing it to various female luminaries including
Maya Angelou and Hillary Clinton. </div>
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Noting what a phenomenon it had become, the editors
of Glamour created a book around it, featuring essays from (mostly)
famous women on each of the items on the list. Because the list still
makes us so, so happy, it's here: (My Check List and may be more)<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></div>
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By 30, you should have ...<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></div>
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1. One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who reminds
you of how far you’ve come. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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2. A decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else
in your family. <span style="color: red;">(Need to
own one)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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3. Something perfect to wear if the employer or man of your dreams
wants to see you in an hour. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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4. A purse, a suitcase, and an umbrella you’re not ashamed to be
seen carrying. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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5. A youth you’re content to move beyond. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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6. A past juicy enough that you’re looking forward to retelling it
in your old age. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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7. The realization that you are actually going to have an old age
-- and some money set aside to help fund it. <span style="color: red;">(Working on it)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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8. An email address, a voice mailbox, and a bank account -- all of
which nobody has access to but you. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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9. A résumé that is not even the slightest bit padded. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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10. One friend who always makes you laugh and one who lets you
cry. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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11. A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace
bra. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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12. Something ridiculously expensive that you bought for yourself,
just because you deserve it. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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13. The belief that you deserve it. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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14. A skin-care regimen, an exercise routine, and a plan for
dealing with those few other facets of life that don’t get better after
30. <span style="color: red;">(Hopefully Soon)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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15. A solid start on a satisfying career, a satisfying
relationship, and all those other facets of life that do get better. <span style="color: red;">(Partially)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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By 30, you should know ...<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></div>
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1. How to fall in love without losing yourself. <span style="color: red;">(Not sure)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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2. How you feel about having kids. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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3. How to quit a job, break up with a man, and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span> <o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></div>
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4. When to try harder and when to walk away. <span style="color: red;">(Not sure)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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5. How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would
and wouldn’t like to happen next. <span style="color: red;">(Waiting for it to happen)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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6. The names of the secretary of state, your great-grandmothers,
and the best tailor in town. (Not sure)<o:p></o:p><u1:p></u1:p></div>
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7. How to live alone, even if you don’t like to. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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8. Where to go -- be it your best friend’s kitchen table or a yoga
mat -- when your soul needs soothing. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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9. That you can’t change the length of your legs, the width of
your hips, or the nature of your parents. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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10. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it’s
over. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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11. What you would and wouldn’t do for money or love. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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12. That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs, or
not flossing for very long. <span style="color: red;">(Check)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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13. Who you can trust, who you can’t, and why you shouldn’t take
it personally. <span style="color: red;">(Partially)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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14. Not to apologize for something that isn’t your fault. <span style="color: red;">(Working on it)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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15. Why they say life begins at 30. <span style="color: red;">(Waiting for it to happen)</span><u1:p></u1:p><o:p></o:p></div>
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What's on your personal list of things to have and know -- and possibly do --
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Swi and I, somehow from a normal casual conversation land up at a point that we start arguing/debating on some or the other thing out of random.<br />
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Lately a lot of people around me have been using this phrase “I’m an open book” recklessly.<br />
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Is being honest, speaking heart felt and being an open book one and the same???<br />
If I had to answer... no its not!<br />
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For me, telling someone that you are an open book means you are saying that there is no more specific further details other that what some/many people already know... It’s not an answer when you are asked to be honest...<br />
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I don’t know if this is philosophy or psych... but its my perception... a book is a writer’s creation... the writer who had the control and choice what to write and what not to write... its can be real, fantasy or fiction... All I want to emphasize is the fact that the writer has the CONTROL and CHOICE of what he wants to share in public/open.... would you call that to be HONEST???<br />
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And the worst part is, most of the times this is used as an answer; when it comes to questions related to relationships.<br />
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I don’t want to write a long post but for some smart souls who want me to give an example:<br />
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<b>ABC:</b> We were together for 3 years and everyone knows no matter how much ever we tried we always land up fighting and hurting one another<br />
<b>ME:</b> It still bothers you even today. You have to move on...<br />
<b>ABC: </b>I have moved on... I am an open book!<br />
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The so called “Open Book” part of the story would not include what ABC went through emotionally, internally at that point of time and today.... they are feelings that no words can express and explain and I am sure no one can put them in words, they are only felt....<br />
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All that people knew was that they were together and the relationship did not work and ways were parted and it was a hurting experience!<br />
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In the end, to me if you use the phrase "I'm an open book" when I ask you an open ended question... Either good or bad, there is way lot more to be known beyond what everyone else or most of them know related to the question!!!</div>Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-13881410490534087462011-05-16T00:07:00.003-04:002011-05-16T00:11:17.615-04:00A New Chapter......I am lying on my bed with candles lit, looking outside my beautiful french window with a view of lit high-rise buildings giving a definition to the skyline. Very calm and serene just missing a clear sky and the full moon.<br /><br />I just finish talking o mom, its her wedding aniversary and I totally forgot about it. Damn!! good I did not get caught with the fact that I had totally forgotten about it but she called asked for a gift herself so atleast I wished her. And in all the conversations where she contradicted herself in all she was talking about her marriage and her husband... "Dad" :) Feels good to know that all it takes is love to hang in there.<br /><br />Everyday I think that I should start writing again. I missed writing but that spirit was missing. That one reason to bring me back was missing. I guess I found it just a few minutes back.<br /><br />You know how it is when you have accepted within your head to let go of something and to move on, but deep down inside there is that one last thing that you wish should happen just to make yourself feel that it was a justice done to you. Something like that just happen, I got a news and it made me so happy, it was deep down within me that I never told anyone about it, nor even complained or asked God to do so (I have a tendency to talk to god in my head and while I am praying... I fight, complain - I am a weirdo but for sure dont need any psychiatric help for it :D)<br /><br />I have to admit I can never complain to God that he never listens to me. He has always given me everything I wanted, I mean it... EVERYTHING!!!! and the things I did not get, I never wanted it badly because I always had doubts about it. I know I am always heard by Him, even things that I dont say or ask for which are deep down inside which I think I am not worthy of.<br /><br />I really have to thank god for making me feel worth it all over again!!!! there was thing one thing that came to my mind when I was hurt, broken and shattered and it was my grief that I wished for this day, it was heard and granted.... I just dont want it to be true any further of what I wished since`it leads to being hurt and to someone who in no ways is responsible for my hurt feelings.... I would not want to anyone to go through a heartache... it really hurts a lot and takes a big part of you before it can leave you!!<br /><br />Change is necessary with time and with time I have changed too. Somethings I wished for and somethings time and life brought... but when I look back, I feel blessed, I feel loved and taken care of!!!!<br /><br />Hope this night leads to a beautiful morning and fills my life all over again with sunshine, bright days. I know I can never be who I was, but this one is better in someways, all it needs to learn is to trust herself again!!!<br /><br />Burying the hardships, bad times and hurt feelings from the past, taking the strength of love, blessings and moments of happiness I would like to start a new chapter saying thank you to all who were a part and left and taking along and moving forward with all who stood and stuck by me and all entered my life to create more beautiful memories that would bring smile on my face when I think about them another beautiful night sometime in future!!!!<br /><br />Thank you GOD for everything... Like I used to say I`m a part of everything that I`ve metDarshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-65363082005421013102011-01-25T21:46:00.003-05:002011-01-25T21:54:13.119-05:00Its about time when......Every single day I think that I should start writing again and should come back to my blog, but I believe I have lost that inner spirit. I wanted it to come back so I thought if nothing I should atleast write what I feel about writing.....<br /><br />I want things to be like before where I was in control of atleast certain things. Other were never a reason for my happiness or my satisfaction..... I was self inflicted, i used to compete with myself and used to do things for myself, what made me happy and thinking about I, me and myself.... I had never needed a materialistic or other people to make me happy or who I was.<br /><br />But since the day I put someone before myself, things started getting out of my control and life took a 360 degree turn. But as it said life does comes to a full circle, I hope I can come back to the same point where everything around me was mine.<br /><br />Hope this brings back the time :)Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-47042089957103975242010-04-03T09:02:00.003-04:002010-04-03T09:14:36.553-04:00"SOMEDAY....."Recently I have been using this word so often; like 'Someday I will be in that position doing tht thing', 'at somepoint that person will realize my importence how much helpful i was', 'Someday I will have a house in this area'.... and so on and so forth... hundreds of things, I've been using this word so often that I have started thinking when will this someday/at some point actually be a day in the present, why can't that someday/some point be today!<br /><br />These thoughts of someday, although has helped me to learn about what I really wish deep down inside and my aspirations, probably it has led to me to find a way, work towards actually accomplishing them.<br /><br />The word “Someday” is too ambiguous. It’s just not REAL, not a goal, a deadline, or an estimation — it’s an unspecified time in the future so indefinite that it’s borderline fantasy. As a result, it tends to promote inaction rather than action. Telling yourself that you want to do something someday doesn’t accomplish much — yet it’s human nature to think this way. People commonly proclaim “I want to get married someday,” or “I want to be rich someday.”<br /><br />They have good reason for being so unspecific: It’s comforting to make goals that lack a due date. There’s no pressure to get it done immediately because there’s always tomorrow. In other words:There’s always the rest of your life for your perfect “Someday” to arrive, but unfortunately, it never comes because, we have to do ours actions for it to happen.<br /><br />The truth is, you won’t experience that “Someday” you’re looking forward to unless you take action today. When you convince yourself that you have the rest of your life to do something, you’ll experience day after day of inaction until you’ve lost your chance to actually do it. <br /><br />I learned this, learned it the hard way. That’s why you can’t make plans for someday. One of my favorite authors writes how “folks who have one foot in the future and the other in the past and spend their time pissin all over today because of it.” (Stephen King, from Four Past Midnight) — I agree wholeheartedly.<br /><br />If you find yourself saying “I wish I had (done something differently),” the thing to do is let it go. Don’t live in your past.If you find yourself saying “I want to (do something) someday,” the thing to do is change your outlook, act to make it happen for the future.<br /><br />"The past is gone... you cant change it, future is not yet here.... you dont know anything about it... what you have is your present, you can control it and work with it, on it; so that when the present becomes the becomes the past, you would not feel "I wish I had..." while you are in your future"Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-53260606344909558082010-04-01T15:48:00.001-04:002010-04-01T15:51:05.217-04:00Random QuotesThree quotes that I came across, randomly, during the day and it got me into DEEP THINKING!!! I haven't done that in a while... Looking deep inside!<br /><br />'There comes a point in your life that you have to realize and accept that you'll never be good enough for some people even if you give up yourself to live life for them, just their way they would want you to, So you need to let go of it!'<br /><br />'The reason why some people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, present worse than it is and future less resolved than it will be.'<br /><br />'In life you can absolutely count on one thing – Everything can turn around in a Day, In a minute, In a moment – this defines HOPE and LEAP of FAITH.'Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-24918057986908346732009-12-08T20:32:00.004-05:002009-12-08T21:09:07.202-05:00MindfulnessAfter reading - A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose by Eckhart Tolle <br /><br />Mindfullness is simply bringing our awareness into the present moment, noticing what is happening right NOW!!! All we have is this very moment. The past is in the past. The future will always remain in future, because once it arrives it becomes present. The future becomes the "NOW". All we can know for certain is what is happening right now. The freedom from worries of what might or might not happen is in the present moment. Relief from the regrets of the past is in the present moment. Peace comes from letting go of the past and the future, learning from our experiences and accepting who we are right now.<br /><br />Through my own personal life experience, I've come to realize how challenging it is to stay in the present moment when what we desire always seems to be in the next step. We become so consumed with the next step that we miss out on what is happening right now. It is easy to get caught up in what isn't working and what isn't happening. If we continue to past or the future, we are missing out on life, because life is happening right NOW!!!<br /><br />For some of us, focussing on the past or future is a way of avoiding the present. By focusing on the future we can avoid any pain, anxiety and loss we are feeling in this moment. But avoiding those feelings won't make them go away; infact it will eventually negatively impact our health.<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Practising the 3 A's</span><br /><br />1. <span style="font-weight:bold;">Awarness</span> - noticing our thoughts and checking how we feel and getting a sense how those feelings show up in our physical body<br /><br />2. <span style="font-weight:bold;">Acceptance</span> - Acceptance is such an important thing and its the most important wich most of us skip it. They end up holding negative emotions like anger and guilt in the physical body. Then they turn into self judgement and the self defeating cycle continues...<br /><br />3. <span style="font-weight:bold;">Action</span> - Sometimes acceptance is the Action. There will be times that the process of making peace with our thoughts and feelings is enough to soften the negative emotions. Other times we will need to take action. It is important to choose the action steps that work best for us.<br /><br />We can begin practising mindfullness using everyday tasks such as eating, walking, listening, working etc. When we focus on what we are doing, seeing, smelling, hearing, tasting or feeling, we are being mindful<br /><br />Ask ourselves frequently throught out the day "what is happening right now". Noticing everything around us and begin looking around the world as if we were looking at the world for the very first time..Looking closely, listening intently, and allowing all our senses to guide us to explore the world in every moment.Savouring all the details and cherishing each moment sd it arrives. For each moment is a "present". It is a Gift!<br /><br />As we receieve the gift or present moment we will be able to find peace, a deep sense of peace that will help us guide through our journey. We have the ability to transform our expereince of life and life is occuring now!!!Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-35210732624785466562009-04-23T21:38:00.005-04:002013-08-26T03:43:02.906-04:00All you need is a Good Companionship!!!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Let me take the most common of the Wedding Vows – “To have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part” – Honestly how many of us actually practice it in real life. Be it the Man or the Wife – you always land up saying – “You don’t understand me”. <br />
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Just like rest of the zillions of people in the world, neither do I know what works for me & what doesn’t... nor do I know what I would like and I wouldn’t like because it depends from person to person and situation to situation I would be with.<br />
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As per for me, I am different with different people, sometimes I am so predictable while there are times when you will fail to figure me out. I do live different lives - I am different when I am home, with my close ones, I differ as a person with my different sets of friends, you would refuse that you hv known me if you catch me at work. There are only a handful of people who have seen me in all the different shades of my personality, so much to say that even my parents and some of my bestest friends will be taken by surprise at some point. <br />
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This brings me to the point how people have perceived me – just to mention a few - some people thought I was – “Arrogant, proudy, bold, bitchy, full of Attitude, Strict and the best one my manager told me “NO NONSENSE PERSON” to the other side – Shy, hesitant, introvert, Calm, Respecting” when they met me for the first time, which does not make me either good nor bad.<br />
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My Companion, My partner - I want to be with someone where I can be myself where I'm my mum n dad’s girl, didi to my younger ones. I come with all my beliefs, value system and relationships and would want to add his to mine in my pot filled with loving people. <br />
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I want to be corrected when I am wrong, I don’t know everything, I’m not perfect. But; tell me “this is a better option, it’s done this way” and not shouting “don’t u know such a simple thing, I’m telling you its a bad idea/choice/option”. I can deal with hot and short tempered, highly impatient person but not some who has violent streak in his anger and throws things around and has no control over his anger.<br />
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Where we have conversations from stupidest stuff to being able to share deep down heart secrets and feel at comfort sharing those moments, where you don’t have to worry about being judged on your every action – it’s only then you can be yourself, mutually being able to share what certain things and people mean to you and being able to respect that. Talks to me about his friends and family, even work; so what if I don’t understand a shit of what he is talking about, the girls he has liked, LOVED and hated. <br />
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He who knows to live life in small moments that we share every day, has kindness, want to help people where he can, volunteer for needy, can share his happiness and richness, stay humble irrespective of his status and success, respecting elders, who wants to stay with his parents and siblings and have a family. If given a chance at some point I want to adopt a child, and can be supportive of a selfless act like that. Who want to have kids not because you have to have kids but want to enjoy parenthood, want to have a daughter so that he can have his “Daddy’s princess” and a son where he can cheer him in his game and be a proud dad saying "That's my boy".<br />
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Fights happen everywhere, disagreements are there. I want to have disagreements, want to fight prolly for something as mere as the remote control and TV shows, where both of us want to win while we are selecting something like dishes, furniture, blinds, curtains, kitchen appliances, wall color – why not??? This is life!!!! Fight, disagree with each other for protecting one another’s family, near and dear ones, go out walking hands in hands, share ice creams - rather in my way, “Let me try yours” and give urs to him, go cycling, short run, beating one another to the door – In doing all these whoever wins, I’m sure makes both of them happy. Doing such things does make you look stupid, BUT it’s COMPANIONSHIP, a strong Partnership!!!<br />
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One who enjoys backpack traveling, goin to zoo’s – looking at the monkey’s and chimpanzee’s trying to match each others face, long drives with windows, sunroof open and not worrying about the car and the gas just enjoying the view with the music and a comfortable silence between us, who makes faces while I pick up candles and agarbatti’s and then smile later on. Likes to sit by the window, enjoys a cup of tea, moves around the house while I am doing up things, goes mad when I want to keep the house clean, splash, sprinkle water while doing dishes, has strong taste buds and flair for food, can enjoy eating pani puri on a street cart without worrying if its hygienic or not but instead agreeing that it would give some immunity to the body, Pillow fights, running around the house. Who says only kids can do that????<br />
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When you are upset, stressed, tensed, gives you space to be by yourself. Help each other grow and succeed. Be the light at the end of the tunnel for one another when you losing hope; build up the faith for one another by letting them know that you are going to be there for them. Life is not a bed of roses but you protect each other from the thorns that are lying, if you are hurt help you recover, help you believe in yourself.<br />
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All this seems to be a long list, very novelish, filmi for some people but it’s not. These are the small moments of life and there is nothing unreal or something that can’t happen. You just need that other person who believes in all these things equally and understand what such moments mean and represent. No wonder its said that “A good friend will be a good partner but a good partner need not be a good friend”.. May be you might not “LOVE” the person, or may be your partner might not “LOVE” you but you like each other as companions – that is important, you are comfortable being with that person and can be yourself that is what that matters at the end. I call it a TRUE GOOD COMPANIONSHIP<br />
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You don’t need lots of money, lavish lifestyle and materialistic luxuries to have a good time; you just need one good companion – its not where we are but with whom we are that makes the difference!!!!</div>
Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-26584246831849902822009-01-30T17:11:00.002-05:002009-01-30T17:19:32.016-05:00About a man.....What happens to a man when<br />He spills his heart on a page... and<br />He watches words flow away then<br />His feelings lie on the page alone<br />There waiting<br />For someone who cares to read them<br />To open their eyes to see them<br />To see if they can make his thoughts their own<br /><br />What happens to a soul when<br />It's trapped inside his emotions<br />And all of these words he's spoken<br />They bind him to the life he's left behind<br />And every new step he takes<br />He knows that he might not make it<br />To all of these dreams that he has yet to find<br /><br />Maybe your life's not perfect<br />But maybe it's not worth what he gives away<br />You can see that this broken soul is bleeding<br />So you can see your feelings inside yourself<br />And wander through my heart<br />Letting you see through me<br />Now only consumes me<br />Forget your pain and watch me fall apart<br />You can see that this broken soul is bleeding<br />So you can see your feelings inside yourself<br />And wander through my heart<br /><br />Yipee!!!! This is my first post of 2009..... <br />After series of events that happened since August 2008, I was feeling that I never be able to write again in my life... Unexpected, undesired things kept happening and got completely trapped in my life that i was badly looking for freedom, freedom of thoughts, words and time. I'm glad I managed to get out from the trap and back :D<br /><br />Lots more to come.... every one shud keeping smilingDarshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-35956528302504281752008-08-27T10:50:00.001-04:002008-08-27T10:53:24.680-04:00Winter's RoadsI read this and just put's my feelings at this moment in words. <br /><br />by Ron Carnell <br /><br />I cannot speak for all who stem<br />'Long roads less traveled as their way,<br />Nor question choices made by them<br />In days long past or nights long dim<br />by words they spoke and did not say.<br /><br />Each road is long, though short it seems,<br />And credence gives each road a name<br />Of fantasies sun-drenched in beams<br />Or choices turned to darkened dreams,<br />To where each road wends just the same.<br /><br />From North to South, then back again,<br />I followed birds like all the rest<br />Escaping nature's snowy den<br />On roads I've seen and places been,<br />Forsaking roads that traveled West.<br /><br />This journey grows now to its end,<br />As road reflections lined in chrome<br />Give way to roads with greater bend<br />And empty signs that still pretend<br />They point the way to home sweet home.<br /><br />But all roads lead to where we go<br />And where we go is where we've been,<br />So home is just a word we know,<br />That space in time most apropos<br />For where we want to be again.<br /><br />For even home, it seems to me,<br />Is still a choice we all must face<br />From day to day and endlessly,<br />To choose if home is going to be<br />Another road - or just a placeDarshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-89770714312029731652008-05-21T20:03:00.001-04:002008-05-21T20:03:42.142-04:00Now I hv no title for this one!!A lonely seagull flies the winds<br />Majestic... soaring...gliding wings<br />A single screech sounds from the sky<br />Come fly with me... come here and fly<br /><br />My spirit floats to be a part<br />I feel the beating of its heart<br />My soul, one with this bird of sea<br />Now knows the meaning to fly free<br /><br />I feel the winds caress my soul<br />And soar the streams without a goal<br />My being trembles of delight<br />A treasure I received tonight<br /><br />The seagull's flight of soaring high<br />The gift of what it means to flyDarshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-41118397246567956812008-05-21T19:52:00.002-04:002008-05-21T19:55:25.917-04:00Interesting<span style="font-weight:bold;">The Wise Man and The Fool</span><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">by John McLeod</span><br /><br /><br />Said the wise man to the fool one day:<br />"I've got a hundred candles,<br />And lots of copper candlesticks with ornamental handles,<br />They cost me every cent I had<br />But I shall be all right,<br />And in the darkness of the eve I'll have a splendid light."<br /><br /><br />The fool said: "Yes, you may be wise,<br />But then again, p'raps not,<br />Only pence had I to buy, one candle's all I got,<br />But then, I bought some matches too<br />And you, the silly goose,<br />Bought none, and so without a light<br />Your candles are no use!"<br /><br /><br />The moral of the story is simplicity's defence, <br />For even the buffooning clown<br />May have some common sense!<br /><br />The wise man and the village fool,<br />But tell me which is which?<br /><br />The one with only coppers?<br />Or the other very rich? <br /><br /><br />After reading this, did you not start thinking on the question asked.... quite an intellectual question!!!Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-6124609042262406702008-05-12T21:45:00.003-04:002008-05-12T22:27:45.718-04:00Finally back to work!!!!Its been months tht i hv been eating people's head that i cudnt study nemore and really wanted to hit the working life as soon as possible. But the way things were, I had already given up of getting any genuine sensible job and I had made up my mind to go back to mumbai for good!!<br /><br />But finally last day of sem, last exam and i get a call from Ontario Ministry of Environment - Mr. Manager Frank Tomassini - "are you still available for work this summer". And I went like - More than available. Tht was the day and today is the day that I finally made it to work after not so good but neither that bad 9 months... It was actually a period worth delivering a baby for sure.<br /><br />So how was the day - Fantastic, Fantabulous, Perfect.<br />As usual, like every time I hv to get back to work after school term, on the first day itself i can never wake up on time inspite of all precautions taken. So was today, sitting in my bed half asleep instead to getting ready to go as I was already getting late, I'm replying to emails. But cuz I'm so used to rushing I finally make up everything on time.<br /><br />After 11 months I actually dressed up all in formals, man i cudnt stop adoring myself in the mirror, an absolute professional look. The last time I was so elegantly formally dressed was 15th july 2007 for my Final and the last Board meeting at Winmark (My workplace in Bbay - though i still miss my desk and all my belongings at office). I am out of the house at 7 am and every one on the station all dressed up formals rushing to work, finally i see a busy life in Toronto and so many people rushing at the same time. It reminded me of my Bbay days at work and this view was way more polished. I was enjoying it all. Finally I reach work on time and got started. <br /><br />I was a bit skeptical wht kinda work would I be given since it was a lab dept. But like I say god always listen to wht my heart wants and I really got much more thn i was expecting. I am finally placed in the reporting team for the annual lab Audit of the ministry labs. Man the work i love the most - Managing and puttingvthins in place and in order and deal with regulations, laws and compliance. Wow I still dont believe I'm gonna get to do it all. The best work timing i cud ever ask for. The only disappoint I had was that i am really goin to be paid really low compared to others. But today looking at the kind of work I am goin to do for the remaining 4 months and the opportunities I am goin to come across at the ministry just covered up for it. Reviewing protocols and SOP's, Audit papers and annual records, stats data, factual data, the list is never ending. I finally sign a confidentiality contract and took an oath - it was just the perfect icing with a a cherry on the cake. As of this day I couldnt hv asked for more.<br /><br />I guess most of the things are in place, atleast for some time. And I hv always believed tht a good start is the best thing u can have and prolly - I hv it.<br />Now what ahead,, just keeping my fingers crossed as a few permanent internal openings are goin to come in 2 months time and if I manage to get that, there wud not be more i cud ask for, for atleast 1 -2 yrs.<br /><br />Studies and education are in place, work life is in place, my home is kinda settled; need not worry for some time - the only thing left my PERSONAL LIFE - which every1 in the world my friends and family thinks that I need to fix and give all my attention and importance, so working on it as well - hoping this time I give it fair chance, time and attention - Probably i know its goin to be the most difficult thing for me compared to the totally different things tht has got importance and attention from my side - But lets give it a shot - For a change everything is falling in right and perfect place - hope even this gets charmed by the good things and vibes around. Inshallah!!!!Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-11330007684500359922008-04-18T16:25:00.001-04:002008-04-18T16:27:15.243-04:00A quote worth reading!!!All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself. <br /><br />~Ralph Ellison, "Battle Royal"Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-44123432483870731242008-04-04T14:33:00.002-04:002008-04-04T14:39:16.347-04:00On the question of raceThis is so very surprising that what does one has to do with one's ethnicity or race when it comes to Job Applications. I had to answer these questions everywhere I applied for jobs. Strange, Who say's only UK is racist, US of A and Canada stand equally!!!! <br /><br />They ask me to write down<br />My race and I think<br />And think very seriously<br />And consider writing down the<br />Truth and have my answer read<br /><br />I have respect in me<br />I have love in me<br />I share my respect and love with everyone<br />Especially to my close ones<br />There is love and respect<br />Inside my body<br /><br />I am a part of a beautiful culture<br />I am a part of a caring culture<br />My culture is very lovely<br />Much different from here<br />There we die for each other<br />Here we are on our own<br />Caring nature from my background<br />Inside my body<br /><br />I have a wonderful family<br />I have wonderful friends<br />Without them, I am nothing<br />Without them, I am no one<br />I am loner in the heart<br />Without their love<br />Without them, I have a lost soul<br />Inside my body<br /><br />I have a dream, which I can fulfill<br />I have a will, which I can fulfill<br />Which I could have fulfilled in India<br />But in Canada, thought a land of opportunities<br />I can see myself somewhere<br />But its not like India<br />I miss my mother’s food<br />I miss my friends<br />But I made new friends here<br />My lost soul, feeling full<br />Inside my body<br /><br />I have experienced education in India<br />I have started experienced education here<br />It is different in India<br />There teachers asked for homework<br />They cared about us<br />Here, we are on our own<br />It is our choice to come class<br />I feel useless here<br />Inside my body<br /><br />They ask me to write down<br />My race and I think<br />And think very seriously<br />And consider writing down the<br />Truth and have my answer read<br /><br />I have a need<br />I have a want<br />I look for love in these people<br />Did I get what I Want???<br />Indeed only in a few people<br />I feel happy<br />Inside my body<br /><br />I have a desire<br />I have a will<br />To become part of this country<br />Yet, have my values be part of me<br />I hope this will be possible<br />For many say they change<br />Even if I become Canadian like the others<br />My soul will remain Indian<br />My heart will remain Indian<br />My blood will remain Indian<br />And I will die Indian<br />Inside my bodyDarshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-49207526240644391622008-04-04T14:31:00.001-04:002008-04-04T14:33:08.988-04:00I’m just a Woman…A woman needs to be assured <br />In each and every way, <br />She needs the warmth of loving words <br />That only you can say. <br /><br />She needs a lot of understanding … <br />When she’s feeling somewhat down. <br />She needs for you to make her smile, <br />And take away her frown. <br /><br />A woman’s heart is fragile <br />Her feelings are that way too, <br />Times she feels so sad inside, <br />Not knowing what to do. <br /><br />It’s hard to be a woman, <br />Misunderstood in many ways, <br />Sometimes all it takes to help, <br />Is a loving word, to make her day. <br /><br />She needs to know that she’s the one, <br />That fills your heart with desire, <br />She needs to be told often, <br />That she sets your soul on fire. <br /><br />She needs that soft and tender touch <br />As if she were a fragile rose, <br />And feel that she’s so special. <br />From all others, you could have chose. <br /><br />She needs to hear, “I Love you”, <br />Whether close or miles apart, <br />She needs to know… she’s the one, <br />That’s the center of your heart. <br /><br />So, please listen when I need to talk, <br />Please kiss away my tears, <br />Let me share my worries with you, <br />And help me face my fears.Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-6784178519726636522008-03-28T13:00:00.003-04:002008-03-28T13:25:45.244-04:00I’ll dream…I’ll do!!A free bird is what <br />I’ve always longed to be<br />Breaking away from the confines<br />Of an uncertain mind<br />Wanting to reach out <br />To the world surrounding me<br /><br />Sky being my limit<br />I hope to reach great heights<br />Striving harder with each new day.<br />Taking criticism in my stride<br />I am now ready to create days<br />From the dark and dreary nights…<br /><br />My dreams are real<br />Quite different from the rest<br />I seek to usher in a new tomorrow.<br />Standing out from the crowd<br />I aim to become better<br />Of course better, than the very best!!<br /><br />I just scribbling this last night, after I read a reply to my job application which said "Your academic qualifications are higher than required for this position".<br /><br />Just want to pen down the words of a song which is quite inspiring and all those people who are away from home and are finding it so hard to hang in, this is for all you guys!!! <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Yeh zamin hain reh guzar ter mere vaste<br />Har ghadi hain ek safar tere mere vaste<br />Nayi mazilo ko chale naye raaste</span><br />(It means that this land is for us to live by as ever moment in life is a part of our journey, and in this journey every new goal to make is going to create many roads to walk on)<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><br />Is gagan ke tale, hum jo ghar se chale, Sirf ye khawab hi saath hain<br />Agle hi mod par, hone ko hain sehar, Zara der toh raat hain<br />Khushiyon se honi abhi mulakat hain</span><br />(Under the shelter of sky when we decided to leave our home, we walked out with our dreams, its been long that you have been walking in darkness but you need not give up now because the night is bout to come to and an end and in no time therz goin to be beautiful sunrise which will overtake the darkness, You have to hang on as you've got to meet the happiness)<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Gum ki deewar se, dukh ki zanjir se, Ruk saki hain kaha zindagi<br />Ek naya hausla, leke dil ye chala, Arzoo dil mein hain phir nayi<br />In ankho mein phir hain saje khab kayi</span><br />(Inspite of hundreds of troubles and disappointment which stop you from moving ahead,they were nto able to stop life from moving ahead. Every trouble/disappointment have given a new hope and courage to move on and again there are new dreams that are built in our eyes)Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-47477395562710691852008-03-22T19:24:00.004-04:002008-03-23T12:24:45.573-04:00The Best colors of my life!!!I know I have always been the crazier one amongst you’ll, but as always I get those Pagalpan & Stupidity attacks today is one of those days. I don’t know why am I doing this but cuz today being Happy Holi and wanted to feel very happy as it is my fav festival for its full of colors, and I love the quote which says “I’m a part of all that I have met” I just wanted count all the colors of love & friendship I have had in life…. Y do I need to do it today???? - Because this day is meant to be spent with colors. <br /><br />So the colorful list follows, find your name its alphabetical – (I Know I’m quite smart)<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Aasutosh</span> – the first time I spoke to this man, showed his irritation because his name was spelt wrong – which he think when pronounced as its spelled sounds like whtever. One of the sweetest friends I have had since past 3 yrs now. I know its very funny and strange how we came across and am really happy tht we did continue as friends and since then hez always been there to hear me out. One person, I don’t know how he figures out only just reading one line I write while I am chatting to him that I am tensed, confused, sad or depressed that he leaves all his work and sits and talks it out with me. Never lets me lose the faith in me n yesterday for the first time he lost on me cuz he cud not hear me sound so negative. One of the men who can make roti’s absolutely round, a shayar at heart and with words, man I miss talking to you these days with all the shayari’s … love ya <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Akhil</span> – you are this one weirdo I met at bholas 8 years ago who wanted to copy an answer from me and I showed it to him and look at his guts that after the exam was over he comes upto me and tells me that next week test i have to read electricity chapter and show him the answers cuz he was not goin to study. Since then thru the year he used to tell me what should I study and go for the test so that he can copy from me and since then we hv been friends. One fellow who gets so annoyed while I used to wait on the streets to eat panipuri and all other chat and used to call me LS… hehe. Whenever we've planned clubbing he used to promise that he’ll get me drunk and when we finally reach he used to buy me cola and keep my mouth shut – how boring – Indian man. He has entertained all my tantrums without getting annoyed and I loved you the most when I told to quit smoking cuz I dint like it and you did that at that moment. Dude I hv very few ppl who take all my tantrums and no one here in Toronto. Man plan a trip soon. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Centennial Folks –<br /><br />Karan & Saad </span>– these 2 are just Jay & Veeru from Sholay, absolute partners in crime, the first set of friends at centennial and after moving to Scarborough. They were the life line and saved me from getting lost with those mad, sad, annoying, gavti roomies I had got. We’ve spent some best time when it comes to goin out, hanging around and at times when I used to miss home. Karan you have been really sweet and your mum and dad have been so good that whenever i came up to your place i they made me feel at home. You guys will always remain close to my heart even if I leave Scarborough. By the way again this time Republik dint happen…. Not fair……<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Bernard</span> – The very first friend I made in my class, he loves Indian food and movies. He will always call up in the middle of the night to tell me which movie he watched and would discuss it. He almost understands everything we talk in hindi, n he replies in English. Man u notice every small thing I wear, shoes, coats, kajal, glosses – I guess now u hv a count of all things I own!!!! Always keeps complimenting me n keeps telling me i m looking good. The only person in this country called Canada I get a hug from everytime hez across…. Ur a total sweetheart<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Jeff </span>– Hez is a freaking flirt, never misses a single occasion to crack some kinda statement so much tht I m blushing almost all the time when he is around. Oh man he gets so mad at me when I say tht he shud hv better choices rather thn flirting with me – I love it when he says ‘u don’t know ur potential’. Hez on a mission to turn me from cute and sweet to hot n sexy gal – This mad man drags me to the gym, he snatches food from my hands while we are out, makes me work out so hard – I hate him for tht. But I love it when he shouts “get ur fat ass out of the couch” hehehe – hez so cute…. Everytime hez seriously saying something I start smiling n he loses on me but poor fellow cant help it…. Hez given up on me. Thank u sweetie – honestly i hv never loved to go to a gym, but cuz of u now it’s a habit. These days all the compliments I get for looking good, all credit goes to u, never felt so good about myself!!!! Muaahhhh<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">St. Josephites – My school</span><br />Wht do I say about these 3 guys – <span style="font-weight:bold;">Anish, Jayraj and Rushabh</span> – when all my closest friends left me n went to the US, I had these people around all the time. Never knew our school reunion would built a friendship so strong with people I used to hardly talk to in the school. I had never spoken to Anish in the school, it was an acquaintance with Jayraj and I remember Rushabh n Abbas used to tease me cuz I loved Salman Khan n everytime a crow used to come on a window they used to point it as Salman Khan.<br /><br />We came together so that our reunion program could work out. Thanks to us and to the idea of reuion I did make friends with people whom once I knew – a lot more thn I used to talk while I was in school. We have discussed life, education, career, finances, real estate investments, stocks market and what not.almost a year and half it was every Friday I used to call up Jayraj – yeh week ka program kya hain. How much they used to tease me. Anish always says – tujhe ladki mein kaun ginta hain – hehe<br /><br />They hv bared me n my non stop cribbing and non sense and a few personal issues all the time while I was in the process of coming to Toronto. They were so harrowed that that if it was in their hands they would have parceled me at that time. Diwali, navratri, weekends and last year’s holi – man I so wanted to have bhang n these guys some how managed to get me though only it was like one glass.<br /><br />Poor Jayraj – as if hez working in Infosys just for us so that we can hv conference calls. Man I’m still trying to figure out out logic behind conference calls just to make weekend programs as if we were dealing with million dollar business….. man miss that time, but u guys hv to stay in touch n keep meeting even if I m not there. If I was the reason, I shud still be the reason for u guys to spend time together. Miss u all a lot<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Karan Oberoi </span>– thts wht the people know you as but for me ur the wacko Kay. What do I write about you, you’ve been the man, philosopher, guide, advisor, counselor and the elder bro. Who says relationships that last forever are of those with blood ties. Whether it be good or bad, u’ve stood by me, and with you I have got another set of parents and a sister who care as much as my own. Though always tried being the elder one which you are, I never let u win. The man who taught me to live life even in the most miserable conditions, taught me to be myself and made me believe in myself and my dreams. If I am a social butterfly or a people’s person is all because of u. If it not had been for u, I would still be that same stupid gal, ugly, introvert, reserved gal. Though not having blood ties, u’ve been my elder bro – conservative, protective and my bestest friend. A person who is always so critical on me, I know I used to feel so bad when u used to be rude but all that rudeness n nastyness has sculpted good things in me that are goin to stay wid me all my life. I need not hv said all this here cuz I know u hate it and u gonna blast me for it – BUT remember u were the one who made me start my Blog....<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Raj</span> – I met you when I was hunting a house to move from Mississauga and then we crashed again in the French class. If it not had been for you, Rohan and Vivek I would hv died in those French classes. Had and have a good time with you guys. You are always there if I need an advice be it my study permit, PR application, work permit, income tax whtever which is important to be known and the right time. You’ve been really helpful to a stranger like me. And plz plz plz gift me your dog (Your Max – bahut pyar se rakhungi….will never ask nething) ;) thanks for being there.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Rikin</span> – Its not the ideal way people begin friendships the way it was ours but its been 2 yrs now and sometimes I think as if I’ve known you for years. I remember, forget even being friends we had like a brief acquaintance and I harrowed you with so many questions all the time while I was applyin to Canada. I still remember it was a Sunday nite for me and morning for you and I made you proof read my recommendation letters and though you were not ought to do that how sweet of you that you did it. That’s not the reason you find a place in this list but you were the very first person I met after coming to Toronto – My FIRST Friend, in Canada. The day I met you I was really low and upset cuz I had been sitting at home and did not go out for like 20 days and was really feeling homesick. That’s a diff thing the day I met you u made miss Bombay a lot that I actually went home and cried but those couple of hrs with you made me feel so comfortable and at home and till today its been the best time, your statements always brings me peace. I know you call me crazy all the time and after readin this I’m sure u’ll say I’m absolutely mad but its ohk… now I’m used to listening it… hehe. I know I do bore you a lot wid my stupidity but you will always be a special friend. It’s a total diff thing tht everytime you are coming down, u tell me; but forget meeting, u don’t even hv the time to call me…. And by the way I still need to meet Bugsy… loved to hv u as a friends, tons of thanks….. <br /><br />And now the reason I am here in this beautiful world.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">My Parents</span> – I know most of my friends and many other people are in an awe when it comes to my mum and dad. Unlike other girls who were around me, I was never told to do certain things or not to do certain things cause I was girl. Wonder if many girls have so much freedom when it comes to taking decisions. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Daddy dearest</span> - I hv been my Poppy’s support system, he has this blind faith in me n don’t know why he belives that I know it all, which acres me all the time. Its been the most difficult thing in his life to let me come here but he just accepted everything without a single word. No questions and no discussions of why, where, what for. I can just say one thing - You are the BEST. Though u tend to be too boring at times but just love the way you are.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Mommy bestest</span> – I guess I hv the weirdest mum in the world. She hates to love me n the same is with me, though we are mother and daughter we are like those bad, wicked, naughty gals. We can talk n gossip bout nething. I guess I hv the only mother who thinks tht I am useless creature cuz I’ve managed to stay single for so long. She so wanted me to hv a BF so that she could team up with him to trouble and irritate me – she calls me a waste and I love it when u say that mom!!! while at my age when all mothers want their daughters to get married and settle down, she gave me all the liberty to do things the way i wanted be it for my personal life, my career - A very practical, understanding n damn Chalu mom...Hehe haha… Shez been my bestest friend may be that’s the reason I never needed a girl friend as u can see only guys are there in my list. Mom by giving me the freedom and independence you have let me learn from nature's best teacher called - LIFE. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">My chotu, my sis – Sushmita</span> – man everytime I talk to her I only feel that I wish I was like her when I was of her age. Shez 6 yrs younger to me but shez been my biggest support system. Man she knows it all, n she knows me inside out – just like still water runs deep. Nobody understands me as much she does, though she doesn’t behave older thn me but I feel she can read my heart. She is very strong, very firm, very very smart and intelligent. Can give u a run for your money. Love u chotu<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">My grandfather, my dadu</span> – I hv been his eldest granddaughter and he has made me the ideal grand-daughter. Hez so proud of me and loves me so much, prolly not many wud hv such great dadu. Its been 8 months here n if the world may forget but ther isn’t been a single Sunday since the day I hv landed in this country that he has forgotten to call me. I know I mean the world to him and I would never let u down. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">My grandmother, my dadi</span> – I wish she was here to see me come so far. She was so so so proud of me and she has been my ideal, a very strong, and independent, self created woman. I was the apple of her eyes, dare if anyone could ever point a finger at me or discourage me in front of her, that person would be trashed, she would not even spare my mum and dad. When people see me they find her replica in me and nothing makes me feel so proud than this. I hope dadi I hv stayed upto your expectations. Your r the biggest thing I miss in life today, if there was some way that I could have you back in my life, I would hv done nething for it.<br /><br />Mum & Dad & Dadu – u guys hv stood by me so strong in past 2 yrs when more half world was not with me and supported me with all I wanted and the way I wanted.<br /><br />And last but not the least – My GOD – I’m always troubling & fighting with him and make him give me all the things I want, but because he is GOD he troubles me a lot in return before giving me everything I wanted. God – you try my patience a lot. Though I cant complain because he gave me all I wanted and will hv to give all I need. I thank you for giving a life filled with so many nice beautiful and positive colors. I can only wish and pray that everyone has a colorful life just like me!!! <br />HAPPY HOLI to everyone!!!Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-91259284899372213632008-02-21T00:35:00.001-05:002008-02-21T00:37:33.855-05:00I, Me and Myself<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KXeOOehhXS0/R70ODDVsVwI/AAAAAAAAAFw/1pY7ZuNkXMI/s1600-h/DSC01855.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_KXeOOehhXS0/R70ODDVsVwI/AAAAAAAAAFw/1pY7ZuNkXMI/s320/DSC01855.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5169303392889886466" /></a><br />Before I start writing, I have to mention that my cooking experiments have never turned a nightmare. I baked a chocolate cake and for sake of fun, I wanted to do some variation. God’s knows how and from where weird ideas come to my head. I mixed red wine with orange flavored Tang and soaked the cake in it n dressed it with frozen mixed berries. I was to hesitant and scared to taste the combination of red wine mixed with Tang, so gave a shout to Meowww (that’s my roomie Soumya) to come and taste it. She said it has turned awesome n trust me it was so fabulous that we all 5 gals pounced on it n in just 2 mins the cake was over. Just we missed the freshly whipped cream as a topping, n with that it would have tasted like heaven!!!! – No wonder Meoowww calls me Creative cook.<br /><br /><br />Now back to myself. People have had been telling that I had changed after coming to Canada and I continuously kept disagreeing to the fact that – I had changed but not for good. After all the rona – dhona for months, I guess I have learnt to be happy while staying all by myself. Only after I overcame all this emotional roller coaster, Arjun visited me last week and we had a great time together.<br /><br />Honestly, now even I feel more comfortable with my life here – though its not that great but its neither that bad. After really long, I mean absolutely after 8 months my life has blessed me by keeping me busy and I guess I love it that way. And I only realized it when my project instructor Paula specially came upto me to tell me, “You love to stay extremely busy, don’t you? You don’t want to take a break for 5 mins while you are in lab”. Even I agree to her but I guess I love to stay busy. I guess idleness would kill me someday for sure.<br />By the way people have stop complaining that I am not the same Dee, darshi, darshu, tashi , they knew and now they have the same old me – only difference I’m not around them. My life is back to normal – I mean I am back to attending calls again figuring out where people’s lives are leading, solving their so called love issues, being the relationship counselor and the life expert. <br /><br />And to people who really think that I look very different and attractive, these days and that I have lost a lot of weight. There’s nothing like that and no special reason behind it. I am not used to listening such things about me so BOYS stop complimenting.<br /><br />Now what’s next with me… I guess will be finishing my semester in 2 months and by then I guess I should have some job. And we will see what happens next Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7495428353266840380.post-50311069238176422282008-01-01T14:59:00.000-05:002008-01-01T15:52:34.387-05:00The Christmas week & the New Year<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_KXeOOehhXS0/R3qnZUeEd2I/AAAAAAAAAFo/JanoMF9SzIg/s1600-h/DSC01370.JPG"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_KXeOOehhXS0/R3qnZUeEd2I/AAAAAAAAAFo/JanoMF9SzIg/s320/DSC01370.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5150613177284982626" /></a><br />I had a great christmas week starting from 24th dec'07 (i m sure i dont need to specify tht but then too). I really had a good time with friends, movies and lots of masti. We travelled to Oak Ridge and Port Perry, some of beautiful places in toronto, all covered with snow n frozen lake Ontario. Being in a vacation home with a balcony which gives u a breath taking and a mind blowing view. i loved it more cuz some how white attracts me a lot. it just looked like heaven on earth, the weather being really nice, not very very cold. I never thought with what I had seen in toronto that it had such beautiful places around. The saddest part tht i forgot to take my camera charger.... damn!!!<br /><br />After all the fun in that beautiful home, we went for some gambling at the blue heron some where near port perry, which in itself is located at a beautiful place. Won a lil moolah with black jack and later moved our way back to toronto aka scarborough (sometimes, rather all the time I feel its a sad place) never mind just another four months n prolly might just move to Edmonton if I dont manage to find nething worth in toronto.<br /><br />Now coming to last night i.e. 31st Dec 2007, was a fabulous day and a great evening and a nice new year start. i celebrated the new years according to indian time with all my frnds on phone, i was glad cuz i wanted to be with my few frnds n family, then followed by the evening, I sooo much felt like dressing up n going out to see the fire works in downtown. So i dared to wear a short skirt in tht cold weather and believe me it was cold but i survived. We had some good time strolling down the streets, these guys so wanted to go to a club n dance thru the nite n i so wanted to be in the open spaces that we split into 2 groups. I shudnt be happy but those guys never landed up going to a club, they got separated, the phones lines were jammed and welcome the new year in a despair n jiff. And me on the other hand enjoying the snow at Nathan Phillip Square, counting down the seconds and then shouting with everyone, and the fireworks. Then we were so hungry that we picked up a sub then travelled out way back home, at home we played some nice music, made some hot gulab jamun, again was on calls till 5.00 am n then finally slept. <br /><br />Now a brand new day, a brand new year, today I just don't feel like thinking too much about the last year nor wonder about what will happen in this year. A nice snow clad day, lotta peace in my head, a nice naughty smile.... so i guess it's a nice start. Will eventually look forward to things..... <br />So HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!<br /><br />By the way the pic is of the house we stayed in n was clicked when we were entering and after tht my cam died...... :(Darshitahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15981006981306634397noreply@blogger.com0