I read this and a few things just flashed my mind and saw myself in it... so wanted it to put it down.. not putting nething across ne one...
I tried my best to conquer, I tried my best to win
I thought my mind was powerful, seems its just oblivion
I'm sorry for the burdens I have laid on you
I tried my best to see that our love would be true
I had my friends and loved ones once upon a time
I risked my own sweet life just so you'd be mine
I have my reasons for being with you
I wish I could explain it, I'll try to prove it soon
I used to be so mighty, I used to be so great
but of course when you came around I lost my ruling place.
You will not admit it, as you shut me up,
You are my true copy such mimicking luck
The stars had crossed our paths yours upon mine
or perhaps it was something greater, you'll knowin your own time.
And as I lie here weakened by your words
the Almighty in me will repeat itself
before I turn into one of your works,
You always tell me you're the best as you brag and gloat
I see my strength being drained,
as a zombie Iwill mope.
Like for everyone else, I am your true source,
You rely on me, although I'm dumb and weak
I shall show you someday, I will make you see.
Andwhen I do recover, and be the great one I truly am
I will love you forever and ever till the end.
- By Krystal A. Cox
Mar 31, 2007
Mar 30, 2007
She Won't Cry
You see the pain
that lies in her eyes,
But, alas, her eyes are dry,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the anger
that burns from her gaze,
The madness that sets her eyes ablaze,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the fear
that closes her eyes,
The smile she wears
is but a disguise,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the hope
that is finally dead,
She cannot trust for her heart
has been bled,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the love that lies within,
But she shall never love again,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see death's hand
that has glazed her eyes,
No one saw her die inside,
They won't cry.No, they won't cry.
that lies in her eyes,
But, alas, her eyes are dry,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the anger
that burns from her gaze,
The madness that sets her eyes ablaze,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the fear
that closes her eyes,
The smile she wears
is but a disguise,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the hope
that is finally dead,
She cannot trust for her heart
has been bled,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see the love that lies within,
But she shall never love again,
She won't cry.No, she won't cry.
You see death's hand
that has glazed her eyes,
No one saw her die inside,
They won't cry.No, they won't cry.
Mar 29, 2007
GRADUATION and BEYOND
Life is enjoyed most
When we complete big tasks,
And graduating from college
Often provides us with a thrill that lasts.
Saying goodbye to friends
that we may not see again,
gives way to our respective futures,
and career opportunities without end.
Of course, professors should be remembered too
But the things that are probably remembered
most,
Are the ideas discovered, and the problems solved,
Which were only achieved, thanks to our own great resolve.
Truly, what lies ahead may seem very uncertain,
But life well go on, as we try to peek behind every curtain,
In many ways it's like Christmas again and again,
As we go through life's portals,
always trying to meet new friends.
And in the end when life is nearly through
And when we ask ourselves what more do we
need to do,
The answer that should come is that It was
all good,
And that we really did get done all the
things that we should.
When we complete big tasks,
And graduating from college
Often provides us with a thrill that lasts.
Saying goodbye to friends
that we may not see again,
gives way to our respective futures,
and career opportunities without end.
Of course, professors should be remembered too
But the things that are probably remembered
most,
Are the ideas discovered, and the problems solved,
Which were only achieved, thanks to our own great resolve.
Truly, what lies ahead may seem very uncertain,
But life well go on, as we try to peek behind every curtain,
In many ways it's like Christmas again and again,
As we go through life's portals,
always trying to meet new friends.
And in the end when life is nearly through
And when we ask ourselves what more do we
need to do,
The answer that should come is that It was
all good,
And that we really did get done all the
things that we should.
Mar 25, 2007
MARRIAGE is OUT, WEDDINGS are IN !!
As the caravan of hi-profile happily ever-afters rolls by, be it Lizzie ‘n’ Arun, or Ash n AB junior or your neighbourhood Khanna/Goyal/Mehta/Iyer WEDS Tanna/Banerjee/Shah/Subramanium who am I to proclaim such heresy against marriages/weddings u might ask. The voice of reason, may be. Or just of a harried human being shuttling between endless weddings of close friends and few more coming my way, who amidst the innumerable sangeet performances, frozen group photos and varied buffet fare, has had a eureka! Moment into the paradoxes of modern relationships.
The key mantra on marriage frm nosy aunts n hitched friends alike is tht no 1 is perfect, you have to make the best of wht u get, make a practical decision to ensure future comforts and yes, adjust adjust and ADJUST! Heady n absolute love is almost never mentioned; infact it’s frowned upon, as if the presence of it means tht the relationship’s aren’t marriage-worthy! And Chemistry?? Bah, tht grows, given time; look at your parents!!!
But wht of marriages tht hv adjustments, compromises and an adequately low dose of chemistry? Has it preluded the scores of men n women from being lonely within these socially sanctified havens of companionship? Has it prevented them from seeking tht elusive companionship from colleagues, frinds,exes and even strangers? And has it prevented some from exiting the institution altogether, leaving behind them a trail of spouse, children, litigation and bitterness?
I am routinely amazed by couples who make light of their non-existent sex life after a few years of marriage in newspaper columns n radio channels. Are these the same marriages we see all around us today where couples walk in hand-in-hand for parties and go home n sleep in separate beds (or worse, others bed)? Only because divorce is messier for the reputation and heavier on bank balances?
As the boundaries of mortality blur, we r left confused whether love and lust can coexist, whether broken families can spawn happy and functional children n whether a dose of mendacity might be the best thing to keep a marriage going.
Is it a wonder then tht in the midst of these shifting parameters, as marriages get more n more fragile, the wedding proceedings get more n more elaborate? 5-hr ceremonies, obscure rituals, expensive designer outfits (I remem Neha saying, “my reception lehnga is done by Ritu Kumar”) are some of the recurring motifs of modern weddings. Multiple celebrations are de rigueur. Add the word ‘celebrity’ (may be small identified person u hv known, use him to ur glory by seeing to it tht celebrity’s presence is noticed) to this cocktail and presto and every service provider worth his salt from candle makers to the paani puri supplier getting two nanoseconds of glory for the show out.
Has tradition become the log we clutch on to as we step into unknown tides of modern marriage?
I suspect no one is the wiser as to wht works and wht dosent, but at the cost of being branded cynic, I can say tht an entire industry of marriage-aids in the form of designers, caterers, hotels, soothsayers, decorators n many other are making a killing n how! Oh sorry, did I leave out the fourth estate?
As for me, I can confirm to hv run out of time, energy and money for any more weddings…. Including my own. But MARRIAGE ??? well. I still want one of those !!!!
I write this after talking to Neha for 73 mins 8 secs over the phone bout her WEDDING coming up on 15th May….
The key mantra on marriage frm nosy aunts n hitched friends alike is tht no 1 is perfect, you have to make the best of wht u get, make a practical decision to ensure future comforts and yes, adjust adjust and ADJUST! Heady n absolute love is almost never mentioned; infact it’s frowned upon, as if the presence of it means tht the relationship’s aren’t marriage-worthy! And Chemistry?? Bah, tht grows, given time; look at your parents!!!
But wht of marriages tht hv adjustments, compromises and an adequately low dose of chemistry? Has it preluded the scores of men n women from being lonely within these socially sanctified havens of companionship? Has it prevented them from seeking tht elusive companionship from colleagues, frinds,exes and even strangers? And has it prevented some from exiting the institution altogether, leaving behind them a trail of spouse, children, litigation and bitterness?
I am routinely amazed by couples who make light of their non-existent sex life after a few years of marriage in newspaper columns n radio channels. Are these the same marriages we see all around us today where couples walk in hand-in-hand for parties and go home n sleep in separate beds (or worse, others bed)? Only because divorce is messier for the reputation and heavier on bank balances?
As the boundaries of mortality blur, we r left confused whether love and lust can coexist, whether broken families can spawn happy and functional children n whether a dose of mendacity might be the best thing to keep a marriage going.
Is it a wonder then tht in the midst of these shifting parameters, as marriages get more n more fragile, the wedding proceedings get more n more elaborate? 5-hr ceremonies, obscure rituals, expensive designer outfits (I remem Neha saying, “my reception lehnga is done by Ritu Kumar”) are some of the recurring motifs of modern weddings. Multiple celebrations are de rigueur. Add the word ‘celebrity’ (may be small identified person u hv known, use him to ur glory by seeing to it tht celebrity’s presence is noticed) to this cocktail and presto and every service provider worth his salt from candle makers to the paani puri supplier getting two nanoseconds of glory for the show out.
Has tradition become the log we clutch on to as we step into unknown tides of modern marriage?
I suspect no one is the wiser as to wht works and wht dosent, but at the cost of being branded cynic, I can say tht an entire industry of marriage-aids in the form of designers, caterers, hotels, soothsayers, decorators n many other are making a killing n how! Oh sorry, did I leave out the fourth estate?
As for me, I can confirm to hv run out of time, energy and money for any more weddings…. Including my own. But MARRIAGE ??? well. I still want one of those !!!!
I write this after talking to Neha for 73 mins 8 secs over the phone bout her WEDDING coming up on 15th May….
Smile..
Smile is an infection
you catch it like a flu
when some one smiled at me 2day,
I started smiling too.
I passed arround the corner,
and someone saw my grin,
when he smiled i realized
I'd passed it to him.
I thought about that smile
Then i Realized its worth,
A single smile ,just like mine
could travel round the earth.
SO if u feel a smile begin
don't leave it undetected
Let's start the epidemic quick
And get the world infected !!!!!
you catch it like a flu
when some one smiled at me 2day,
I started smiling too.
I passed arround the corner,
and someone saw my grin,
when he smiled i realized
I'd passed it to him.
I thought about that smile
Then i Realized its worth,
A single smile ,just like mine
could travel round the earth.
SO if u feel a smile begin
don't leave it undetected
Let's start the epidemic quick
And get the world infected !!!!!
Mar 24, 2007
Cricket n Shakira thru the day..
Today throughout the day i did nuthing other thn bickering bout the Indian team n poor performance last night... attented a few calls n heard gallis coz yest i told a few guys tht India is not winning the match... never mind day is gone so is the match...
i dont believe tht i chatted so much throughout the day.. i did not allow aasutosh to sleep n continued with out chat(hez damn sweet, he didnt mind staying up late).... we started chatting at around 11 am my time till 3.00 pm.. i was on orkut n i read the testimonial vishal wrote for me n he called me a bitter muskmellow.. n while i was removing other testimonials i by mistake deleted his... other thn tht one line he had really written nice things... n i called him to write it again.... n he did it but in the new testimonial he called me a daaku :( (i guess i can be 1.. hehe).... with tht even aashutosh wrote me a nice testimonial... so far pretty good day till 5.00 pm
Tomo is Shakira's concert n i so wanted to go for it but i really did not hv those executive passes n did want to go for it standing rght at the back in the crowd.. i know god listen's to me n hv awesome frnds..Bunny called up n said he managed to get 3 executive passes rghtin the front.... Wow.. i m gonna hv fun tomo... the bad thing with this is Bunny dropped vinit for the concert.. its ohk he'll watch on TV... i m all charged for shakira's concert.. yipee
i dont believe tht i chatted so much throughout the day.. i did not allow aasutosh to sleep n continued with out chat(hez damn sweet, he didnt mind staying up late).... we started chatting at around 11 am my time till 3.00 pm.. i was on orkut n i read the testimonial vishal wrote for me n he called me a bitter muskmellow.. n while i was removing other testimonials i by mistake deleted his... other thn tht one line he had really written nice things... n i called him to write it again.... n he did it but in the new testimonial he called me a daaku :( (i guess i can be 1.. hehe).... with tht even aashutosh wrote me a nice testimonial... so far pretty good day till 5.00 pm
Tomo is Shakira's concert n i so wanted to go for it but i really did not hv those executive passes n did want to go for it standing rght at the back in the crowd.. i know god listen's to me n hv awesome frnds..Bunny called up n said he managed to get 3 executive passes rghtin the front.... Wow.. i m gonna hv fun tomo... the bad thing with this is Bunny dropped vinit for the concert.. its ohk he'll watch on TV... i m all charged for shakira's concert.. yipee
Mar 23, 2007
Sex and the City
Things men can learn watching 'Sex and the City'. Men make your peace with it and begin to use it to your advantage !!!
5. Modern women can be suspicious and cynical about romantic gestures
Evidence: Carrie chastises a Russian painter for reading love poem to her
Lesson learned: Outside of the big holidays, valentine's day and christmas, attempts to providewomen with romantic gifts are generally futile.
4. Women can sabotage their relationships to make them fail
Evidence: Samantha cheated on her boyfriend and even told him before she did it. why? Because she was nervous about being in a long term relationship and was hoping to use her infidelity as a means to push him away.
Lesson learned: When a relationship goes sour, know that there is a good chance it wasnt beer and sports tht drove your girlfriend away; it was her own neurosis.
3. Women like to drink
Evidence: Women on the show open their mouth for 3 reasons: talking, eating and pounding back liquor.
Lesson learned: Alcohol is the quickest way to bring basic human drives - such as agression, sadness and most importantly, sex - to the forefront of any social interaction This reminds me of an sms i recieved - whn luv fails emotion works, whn emotions fail memories work, when memeories fail words work, when words fail tears work and when everything fails - 90 ml of vodka - it definately works... hehe
2. Despite their cynicism about romance, the word 'love' is still very important to women
Evidence: Though Carrie and her boyfriend went to a party together, she had no problem leaving with one of the waiters. Because the boyfriend hadn't told her he loved her yet, and in the words of Carrie Bradshaw, "Everything before 'I Love You' just dosent count."
Lesson learned: The word love has become a key marker that often determines when a relationship becomes monogamous. This means tht even if you think you are in an exclusive relationship, unless you've dropped the "L-bomb" there is a good chance she is still assessing the other romantic options available to her.
1. All women are different
Evidence: There is a reason no man has been able to capture more than one heart from the ‘Sex and the City’ gang: All women are different, and works for one woman in the realm of romance might not work for another.
Lesson learned: Just because most women have changed their values and norms when it comes to sex and relationships, it doesnt mean tht their personalities hv become synchronized as well. (I particularly agree to this lesson)
5. Modern women can be suspicious and cynical about romantic gestures
Evidence: Carrie chastises a Russian painter for reading love poem to her
Lesson learned: Outside of the big holidays, valentine's day and christmas, attempts to providewomen with romantic gifts are generally futile.
4. Women can sabotage their relationships to make them fail
Evidence: Samantha cheated on her boyfriend and even told him before she did it. why? Because she was nervous about being in a long term relationship and was hoping to use her infidelity as a means to push him away.
Lesson learned: When a relationship goes sour, know that there is a good chance it wasnt beer and sports tht drove your girlfriend away; it was her own neurosis.
3. Women like to drink
Evidence: Women on the show open their mouth for 3 reasons: talking, eating and pounding back liquor.
Lesson learned: Alcohol is the quickest way to bring basic human drives - such as agression, sadness and most importantly, sex - to the forefront of any social interaction This reminds me of an sms i recieved - whn luv fails emotion works, whn emotions fail memories work, when memeories fail words work, when words fail tears work and when everything fails - 90 ml of vodka - it definately works... hehe
2. Despite their cynicism about romance, the word 'love' is still very important to women
Evidence: Though Carrie and her boyfriend went to a party together, she had no problem leaving with one of the waiters. Because the boyfriend hadn't told her he loved her yet, and in the words of Carrie Bradshaw, "Everything before 'I Love You' just dosent count."
Lesson learned: The word love has become a key marker that often determines when a relationship becomes monogamous. This means tht even if you think you are in an exclusive relationship, unless you've dropped the "L-bomb" there is a good chance she is still assessing the other romantic options available to her.
1. All women are different
Evidence: There is a reason no man has been able to capture more than one heart from the ‘Sex and the City’ gang: All women are different, and works for one woman in the realm of romance might not work for another.
Lesson learned: Just because most women have changed their values and norms when it comes to sex and relationships, it doesnt mean tht their personalities hv become synchronized as well. (I particularly agree to this lesson)
Mar 22, 2007
Yummmmmm
Its been 10 days tht mum is out of town n i hv been in the kitchen.. though this time mumz left a cook since exams are coming by n i know y so much of extra pampering... but i guess when mumz out i get to experiment in the kitchen with cooking... since i dont hv to do the usual chapati, sabji stuff this time, i hv all the time to cook something else,so whts on the menu.... Desserts !!!
For the first time i tried making gajar ka halwa... i had no idea how to make it but had seen mum once or twice adding things while making the halwa... so i used lil cooking sense tht i have n managed to make it.. though i never wanted to make a fool of myself so after it was ready i tasted it myself.. n to my surprize it turned out really well.. when i served it to dad he was surprized to see the gajar halwa.... hehe.... dad n sis enjoyed the halwa n they liked it so much tht in bout 3 hrs they finished it n it was around 1 kg....
Next day it was time to bake some cake... i hv tried a couple of times n everytime something goes wrong... so this time i bake it.. cake was looking fine but i had no guts to taste it.. n since all my experimental outcomes are tried on my sis, she was really happy tht i turned out well but thought tht the cake cud hv been a lil soft but was quite good in taste... this cake got over in like 2 days n dad felt like hving more so next day i baked it again n it turned out really well..... practice definately makes man perfect....
Now in all this i made quite a few other things chocolates & ice cream.... n this time nothing was wasted n nothing i made had to be thrown into the bin..... i m really glad bout it... now blunder is, mum left back 1 kg of cocoa powder n a pack a kashmiri kesar (saffron) which is really expensive (125 Rs. for 1 gm) n all of tht is over in like lil more thn 10 days...... All the ice creams, chocolates, cakes, brownies.... all of them chocolate flavoured... the thing is like when mum comes back its fine with the cocoa powder coz only i use it but with tht kesar getting over shez gonna kill me...not coz it was expensive but u hardly get it here... its the best quality n she had bought it n really used it carefully only while making kheer for special occasions.... i will hv to put the blame on dad for it.. i know thts the only way out n she wont say nething.... but whtever it is i really enjoyed cooking this time.... now with food i surely can make some good deserts.. hehe...
For the first time i tried making gajar ka halwa... i had no idea how to make it but had seen mum once or twice adding things while making the halwa... so i used lil cooking sense tht i have n managed to make it.. though i never wanted to make a fool of myself so after it was ready i tasted it myself.. n to my surprize it turned out really well.. when i served it to dad he was surprized to see the gajar halwa.... hehe.... dad n sis enjoyed the halwa n they liked it so much tht in bout 3 hrs they finished it n it was around 1 kg....
Next day it was time to bake some cake... i hv tried a couple of times n everytime something goes wrong... so this time i bake it.. cake was looking fine but i had no guts to taste it.. n since all my experimental outcomes are tried on my sis, she was really happy tht i turned out well but thought tht the cake cud hv been a lil soft but was quite good in taste... this cake got over in like 2 days n dad felt like hving more so next day i baked it again n it turned out really well..... practice definately makes man perfect....
Now in all this i made quite a few other things chocolates & ice cream.... n this time nothing was wasted n nothing i made had to be thrown into the bin..... i m really glad bout it... now blunder is, mum left back 1 kg of cocoa powder n a pack a kashmiri kesar (saffron) which is really expensive (125 Rs. for 1 gm) n all of tht is over in like lil more thn 10 days...... All the ice creams, chocolates, cakes, brownies.... all of them chocolate flavoured... the thing is like when mum comes back its fine with the cocoa powder coz only i use it but with tht kesar getting over shez gonna kill me...not coz it was expensive but u hardly get it here... its the best quality n she had bought it n really used it carefully only while making kheer for special occasions.... i will hv to put the blame on dad for it.. i know thts the only way out n she wont say nething.... but whtever it is i really enjoyed cooking this time.... now with food i surely can make some good deserts.. hehe...
Mar 13, 2007
Wht a relief getting outta the depression
Since a couple of weeks there hv been good discussions at my place on I shud be going to the US rather going to Canada. Last week with my sis in law's visa being rejected n two of my other fnds visa's being rejected just added the not needed oil to the fire.. All these events led me to thinking so much tht i almost landed up being in depression..
Its not tht i hv a prob going to the US but i'm not in for doing another MS, n most importantly i'm looking towards getting outta this place for better work opportunities in terms of career in biotechnology with putting in minimum amount of time studying. Taking US into consideration i will hv to give in almost lil more than 2 yrs for a research based MS n as far as MBA goes i need to hv close to 2 yrs of full time work experience to get into a good B school... I really cant wait for so long, i've become really become impatient these days. Looking at the on job senario of biotech here im mumbai is equal to none, n i cant go to ne other city here in India.
I became too pessimist bout getting a visa which led to me being depressed. I so felt like talking to someone but i really had nothing to say coz my fear was quite baseless. I really behaved stupid n harrowed the hell outta Abhi n Chaitanya. But i was really feeling miserable. Thanks to Abhi, he helped me get out of this depression, which was so much imp coz i hv my final sem coming up (god, i guess we spoke on the phone for like freaking 4 hrs at a stretch not letting him sleep n yea tht was quite a few $'s i made him spend)
I guess i'm feeling better, will hope for the best. On a lighter note, If i get visa to canada, will be the best thing coz i really wanna go ther (its everything n the way i wanted), n if it dosent happen thn i guess i m really happy in mumbai n get on to job with a lil compromise on not getting into biotech. Keeping fingers crossed n good amount of positive spirits, i hope to hv things rolling my way... ab delhi door nahi..hehe
Its not tht i hv a prob going to the US but i'm not in for doing another MS, n most importantly i'm looking towards getting outta this place for better work opportunities in terms of career in biotechnology with putting in minimum amount of time studying. Taking US into consideration i will hv to give in almost lil more than 2 yrs for a research based MS n as far as MBA goes i need to hv close to 2 yrs of full time work experience to get into a good B school... I really cant wait for so long, i've become really become impatient these days. Looking at the on job senario of biotech here im mumbai is equal to none, n i cant go to ne other city here in India.
I became too pessimist bout getting a visa which led to me being depressed. I so felt like talking to someone but i really had nothing to say coz my fear was quite baseless. I really behaved stupid n harrowed the hell outta Abhi n Chaitanya. But i was really feeling miserable. Thanks to Abhi, he helped me get out of this depression, which was so much imp coz i hv my final sem coming up (god, i guess we spoke on the phone for like freaking 4 hrs at a stretch not letting him sleep n yea tht was quite a few $'s i made him spend)
I guess i'm feeling better, will hope for the best. On a lighter note, If i get visa to canada, will be the best thing coz i really wanna go ther (its everything n the way i wanted), n if it dosent happen thn i guess i m really happy in mumbai n get on to job with a lil compromise on not getting into biotech. Keeping fingers crossed n good amount of positive spirits, i hope to hv things rolling my way... ab delhi door nahi..hehe
Mar 4, 2007
Russell Peters Accents Clip
I love this man..i appreciate people who can digest his humour and have a good laugh..
Hostel (Holi)
No words.... I was so much into the movie feeling the mood of the Holi.... n there it comes the real story.... i never expected this movie going that way.... sheer brilliance.... one of the best short films i have ever seen...
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