My First Love !!!!

A few random thoughts..

Love is something that is not easily explained, no words can express it and no one person feels the same about it. It’s waking up in the morning wanting to be with that one person and going to bed feeling the same way.

It’s knowing that you want to spend the rest of your life with him and it’s a feeling so great that no matter what anyone says will never be taken away. It’s crying every night when the one you love doesn’t love you back, it’s feeling that pain in your heart when you lose that one person.
Love is hard to find, and even harder to keep, it takes time and effort to keep it going; but u don’t mind because you would do anything in the world to keep it going.

It’s knowing that when you come home you’ll have someone to share your day with, it’s that last conversation of the night before you fall asleep. He’s the first one you want when you wake up, the only thing that’s on your mind all day, everyday.
It’s knowing that someone’s always there for you to cry on, someone’s always there to talk to about anything and won’t judge you for that. It’s the person you feel the most comfortable with in the world and to know that you have that, that you share that special bond with one other person, that’s the best feeling in the world.

But…… when you lose that feeling, when you lose the only thing that ever mattered to you, it seems like life has no purpose, no point at all. You feel like you just curl up and die. That nothing or no one else matters to you and the only thing that you’ve ever wanted is now gone and you will do anything to get him back,
Because he’s worth it … you’ll try and try until one day you realize that things will never be the same again. Your love is still there, deep inside of you. So you try your best to just be friends, and it works for a while but the feelings are still there.

So you want to forget about him, but that’s even harder. There are too many memories, to many good times to just forget and no matter what you do, he’s always there

Every where you look, everything you do, every place you go, every song you hear, every guy you see reminds you of him. And you hope someday you’ll be back together.

But until then there’s nothing you can do, but sit and cry, and to go through that pain when he talks about another girl he likes, or how good his life is going and that pain breaks your heart day after day.

Tear after tear, until you have no more tears to cry, until you just get used to that hole in your heart that won’t go away, that pain never leaves you that lonely feeling that stays with you forever and you may have other guys, but nothing or no one could ever compare, and you know that !!!!!

COURAGE TO MOVE ON….

They had been together for many a year,
Now all she can feel is fear.
She gave all that she could give,
It just wasn’t the way he wanted to live.

He left without a backward glance,
Not even giving their love a chance.
She often wonders what she could have done,
To keep him from going on the run.

Now she is living all alone,
With nothing she can call her own.
She can barely make herself eat,
Wondering if her life will again be complete.

This woman is now moving along,
Building her courage, and becoming strong.
Time will heal her broken pride,
Toward the sunrise her heart will glide.

Memories

I was really annoyed with Karan for waking me up at 5.30 in the morning but then when we reached Juhu beach and being able to see the sunrise... jaa tujhe maaf kiya

Walking through the beach some thoughts that just passed by......

Was walking down memory lane,
Was walking on the beach,
Throttling the feeling of pain,
Keeping doubts out of reach.

Had a look at the sands of time
The hours when time itself stood still,
Could hear distant bells chime,
And I was walking while I still stood still.

Felt the heat of the sun beating,
Could sense an awe that the past left,
Saw the sheath of life fleeting,
Glimpses of what was there were best.

In my life is our friendship…
So calm so true
We’ve had many times and we’ll have many more too.

Love you baccha !!!!

Just for the sake of it !!!

I have created this blog simply coz i was forced to do... My precious diary has been stolen to get this thing done..

Karan u have to do something that really irritates me everytime you come down to India.Hez forced me to create a blog but really dont know wht i am going to scribble here and how often. I dont know how much can i go public with my thoughts but will surely not waste this effort of mine.

As of now i guess this should be fine and enuff which can be posted.
Cheers for my first blog.. and karan i want my diary back